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Stuck, depressed and anxious...

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Contakt2
Contakt2

Hi everyone,

I am 19 year old male who suffers from a generalised anxiety disorder for 2 years which is causing depression as well. I posted my story quit often on this forum, but I don't know where I could talk better elsewhere. I don't want to go too much in to my past on this topic, but if you have any question, ask them and I answer them.

I feel very sad lately, like I'm running out of ideas and hope. I often write down my thoughts, but I can't really talk about it with someone. I do see psychologist once a week, but I feel like that isn't enough. I need someone where I can talk more then that to receive advice and keep me positive. I do have my mom where I could talk to, but she got her own problems and I don't want to interrupt here with mine as well. I do talk with her about what I have occasionally. I find it quit hard to burden people with my problems besides my psychologist, but most of the time when I see my psychologist I'm not completely happy how it went. I have a conversation with her one hour, but due of my anxiety I experienced often that I didn't tell her enough what I'm bothered with.

My thoughts about everything in my life are very negative. I live very limited right now and I can't be the person who I actually want to be. I don't feel at my place on this earth. When I look at characteristics they almost are all negative. I never been happy in my life and I still am not. I'm afraid that my personal development has been wrongly forged in my youth and I can't change this, because it are too many negative characteristics. I wish I could talk about it with someone often, but I don't have such a person in my life. I feel sad, I want to cry, but I can't, because my mind blocks that. I made a list of characteristics which I want to have less and onces which I want to have more, but looking at that list makes me actually even more depressed.

Probably one of the last times I have posted here, because my hope and faith is drowning to a level of zero.

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  • james87669
    james87669 Contakt2

    Posted

    First question is: are you taking any medication for the GAD and depression? If you are not then see a psychiatrist rather than a GP. Medication plus CBT (cognitive behavioral therapy) provided by your psychologist will help OVER TIME !

    I know from personal experience and have been living with GAD+DEP for most of my seventy four years. Above all, keep up the fight, don't give up.

    • Contakt2
      Contakt2 james87669

      Posted

      Recently (2 weeks ago) stopped taking my medication (prozac) which my psychiatrist prescripted to me after a 1 year of taken it. I took a very lose dose of 10mg, because higher made me feel very bad. I don't think medication can really help me, I feel like its only soften my symptoms, but don't actually fix the problem it self. I think I need a clear mind for this. I did cbt therapy with my medication as well, but it felt like I couldn't really feel better, because everything felt supressed.

    • hypercat
      hypercat Contakt2

      Posted

      Hi the purpose of meds is not to 'fix' the problem but to make you feel better and more able to tackle your issues. There are many other meds to try which might suit you better. Neither prozac or mirtazapine helped me but the 3rd one I tried, sertraline does. x

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