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let me start I've been depressed now along with having anxiety for 8 years some bad days some great days
Something happened to me in February which turned my life around completely and had me planning my suicide with no doubt that I'd do it and only imagining my parents seeing my dead body stopped me!
I got around it and i actually started to feel better!
The thing didn't bother me anymore
Yet today for some crazy reason I started feeling super depressed about that thing again I don't know why it has literally just popped up and I'm over thinking again I feel absolutely horrible I don't know what to do anymore, I keep trying to tell myself "imagine your parents seeing your dead body" but I just really don't want to be alive anymore this thing is ruining my life and I also found out on top of this bullcrap I found out I could possibly have pcos all signs are pointing there I'm waiting for results and my life long dream is to have children
I'm so scared one day my parents won't be here my dad hasn't got the best health, and I'm scared of being alone once they die because I know for a fact i will definitely end up killing myself
I hate feeling like this, all my life I've had a terrible time from bullying starting from when I was 13 nothing has gone my way I want to die but I was feeling so good recently why oh why have I suddenly out of the blue started to feel like absolute sh*t again ? Nothing has changed in my life no new disasters but I've just started feeling horrible today started slowly and now it's suddenly at the top! I want to die I need help so much I'm struggling
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