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Its a complicated story, but thank you for reading it. I am Sam, My boyfriend is Joseph, and his brother is Carter.
Now, to sum up the back story to Joseph's and My own relationship, I was kicked out of the house the day before I turned 18, my mom had a miscarriage and she was angry about me wanting to go to college. So to make it easier I lived with Joseph so I could finish high school, Joe then went to Syracuse New York for college, he was alone, grew depressed and I worried he thought of suicide. (his mother would call every 3 days to tell him how much his schooling cost and how he "Better not fail") So, eventually he grew tired of it, and I offered for him to live with me for the summer. I'd bought an apartment and a car and figured I could try and empower him for a bit. His mother attacked him and told him he "isnt a man and cannot play "house" with Sam". She texts him often about how he is still a child and will not be successful being with me. I worked 2 jobs to save up money as he tried to get a job... he ended up working at a fast food place and it hurt his ego. He looked around more and after dozens of rejections he got a job at a very nice company. Two weeks into his work and a close chance with happiness, Joseph lost his closest brother (Carter) to suicide. Carter killed himself in his dorm and it took about 2 weeks to ship his body home, when he arrived their Mother (being a million dollar business owner) wanted to launch an investigation case to see if it was murder. Doing this, Carter's burial was pushed back 3 times. Joseph struggled in dealing with the death, the circumstances, the prolonged suffering of 3 MONTHS until Carter was buried. Joseph hadn't seen Carter for a year and when he did, Carter was already in the decaying process... since then, he hasn't been the same. His mother has grown very controlling and aggressive toward me and Carter's fiancee. She had grabbed me in front of Joseph and told me she didn't need me "taking her son from her." I understand her point of view, but Joseph chose in the end to stay with me, I worked hard so he could... however aside from that. Joseph's world is in shambles. His mother disapproves of me, his brother is gone, he doesnt have much money to his name, he isn't in college right now, he doesnt have a car although I tell him mine is his too, he has high dreams and passions but no one to really help him reach them. Anyway, I'm sorry if I didn't make much sense, its really complicated, I left a lot of other occurences out but those are the main reasons I know Joseph is suffering from severe anxiety. Also, he mentioned how he romantically doesn't love me anymore, and i think it makes sense since he is being psychologically chased by monsters and insecure about what he needs in his life.... why would he have time for me? However, he still Loves me, in a friend way and I passionately love him... I figure space is what he needs and support in his decisions that will make him happy and feel like a man or someone of success. So I told him to put Us, Me, his romance on the back burner so he could face his other demons... I realize that I give him anxiety now, and I hate it. he is my best friend and we have struggled together,I feel like we deserve to experience the happy time together soon... maybe that will come when he is secure.... How do I help him get there? Thank you for your time and help.
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