Suffering from untreatable anxiety and dipression since last four years
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I'm going through since last four years. Sadness, fearful, hopeless, helpless, worthless, isolated, lonely, many types of mental headaches, emotional and physical pains,
No interest in any thing, no motivation, no support. Everybody around seems least bothered even closed family members like wife, married sons, their wives, grandkids n relatives and friends.
Life got upside down since last four yearsdue some sevre within family problems breaking entire family. I being head of family aged physically and mentaly sick failed to cope with the situation and traped in sevre Dipression and anxiety which is now all treatment resistant. Even CBT and ECT also not helped.
Getting difficult to sleep, difficult to get out of bed and out of house. Scarred and fearful all the times, no purpose of meanings at sight. Constipation or Diheria adding more stress and irritation.
Side effects of AD effected both eyes n gone through cataract, then Gulucoma surgeries which still painfull with dry eyes now inserted with plugs to stop drainage of tears. Such a long list of daily physical and mental pains but still trying to survive, inspite daily self harm and suicidal thoughts. It's not me alone, we all are going through these agonizing situations daily with a hope that this will also pass. I don't have any solution but wenting releave some pain. Any advice, suggestions and help appreciated...
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Aspinan momo7
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Hi there, so sorry to here of your situation sounds aweful. You mention that your anxiety and depression is untreatable and wondered if you've tried benzos for your anxiety, I'm guessing given your situation it wouldn't matter if you became reliant on them, I inow if I was you I'd take em to get some relief, sod any consequences but that's me.
When medicine fails you have to rely on yourself to try and mitigate the symptoms by getting out, socialising and trying to live a "normal" life despite the utter lack of motivation, I'm not in your shoes or anything like what your going through but I carry on my normal life as best I can (apart from work atm) I'm sorry I can't be any more helpful. Neil
mimibrenda momo7
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jan34534 momo7
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i highly recommend you speak to a counselor. Depression is difficult to manage alone and the counselor can really help you.
There are many meditations for depression, anxiety, sleeping. Etc on you tube!
I think they could really help you. Just search for Guided Meditations for depression and use earbuds for a better effect.
many to choose from!
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momo7
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Thanks to all of your kind responses and advices.
I'm taking clonazipam 1mg at bed time to sleep for few hours and really reluctant to increase its dose as I'm afraid and trying weanoff from it too as I'm using it since last two years. I stoped taking all other AD as nothing helped, rather due unbearable side effects of AD, I suffered badly till now.
My wife also seems tired due my prolonged sickness with no relief, I don't know. I tried one on one Therepist with CBT more the 15 sessions but nothing moved slightly.
I remain irritated and frustrated whole day and afraid to get out of house also isolated completely from all. I'm struggling to get out as I remained very social and remained Free Social Volunteer for more then twenty years having large social group but now I'm completely cutoff. Lost interest in everything and just waiting, waiting and waiting. Some real boost and supported heavy push may help but I don't have any such resources now. I know, unless I do something to change nothing will change. Needs your support, prayer and real push to get out and try become social and active.