Suicidal

Just remember we are here for you. 

I want you to think of me when you kill yourself, but most of all I want you to think of the people who are close to you, who would feel their hearts breaking if they lost you.

Where are you?  What country I mean.  Will you allow me to talk to you one to one?

I totally understand if you would rather stay private, I would be the same.  I just worry about you so much.

Take care my friend, please, please remember that life is precious.

Pat

Hi Pat, I'm still here!  Sorry to be such a worry to you, don't mean to be.  Maybe I should just stop posting.

When I'm feeling so suicidal I don't really think of others, sorry, and if I do, then I think everyone would be better off without me anyway.

I'm from the UK, and you may pm me if you want to.

Just don't think I belong in this world, even my parents didn't want me, apparently I was "a mistake".

Sorry, will shut up now, too full of self pity today.

Mamixx

No, no...don't you dare stop posting!!  I worry about you when you write, but I would worry about you far more if I didn't hear from you.

Also, I think posting is helping you in some way....I could be wrong, but I think it is.

OK, so you are in the UK too. 

Your feelings when you are suicidal are so typical, but so wrong.  Nobody would be better off without you.

I have always felt that I didn't belong in this world, mostly because I can't understand the cruelty that goes on, but I didn't have that terrible thought that my parents didn't want me.  Oh, mami, that is so awful, I am sorry.

Please keep posting, I will be looking out for you.

Pat xxx

Sorry, don't think it would be appropriate to go into such details on here!

No, no, no Mami.

You do not NEED to die, nobody needs that.  You are struggling today, but you have struggled many, many days and you have stayed strong.  Telephone the Samaritans, or anyone who you can speak to please. 

Don't let the people down who love you, there HAS to be another way, please search for it.

Sending you love and hugs.  You are in my thoughts.

Pat

thats the exact description that i do go through, sorry to hear, hold tight till ur next gp appointment i guess

Sorry you're suffering like this too.  It's horrible isn't it?  My next appointment with psychologist isn't until 20th of August.  That's a long time to wait when living hour by hour.

Look after yourself

Mami5 xxx

thank you, an yes i appreciate its over a month away, still not had my appointment for a psychologist as of yet, even though i been told its being rushed, my next gp app. is 5th aug, so i can hold till then, i sometimes feel maybe they r holding the appointment off as maybe they think i will not go ahead, i want to put a proposition to the government to cull off voluntry suicidle ppl, and would allow euthansia to pass law, ive been told i've been cursed, im guessing by spirits, of whom only jealous ppl wud bestow upon me, also told i cannot go forward untill this spell is lifted, i just dont want to wake up, as if my suicide is followed thru, a few evil ppl would be happy bout this

 

No memories.  No family.  No pets.  Is that what you want Mami....really????

Is it not worth waiting to see how things go?  I hope you will.  I promise you there is more to life than what you are seeing now, please wait and see how things go.

You are constantly in my thoughts, I would do absolutely anything to help you. 

You often sign off by saying "Look after yourself"..... please look after YOURSELF.

Pat xxxxxxx

Hi Pat, no memories...yes.  I came into this world with nothing, and I will enter the next the same....clean slate.  Sounds good to me.

I truly believe my purpose here is done.  I came to this world to raise my children, and have done so, there's nothing else for me here.

I'm sorry.  Really appreciate all you've done for me.

Mami xxx

Don't go, please don't go.  I think you are wrong, I think your children will be devastated.  I don't think you can see how it would affect them.

You still have so much to give, you have to believe that.

Please,

Pat.