Super severe depression
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So Ive tried talking to a lot of people on forums about depression and a lot of them seem to be way higher functioning than me.. Ive literally tried everything there is to try to get me better and nothing does anything at all. Ive tried every med there is for both depression and anxiety and nothing has done anything at all. Im currently undergoing ECT and im on my 30th treatment, and i actually seem to be getting worse. Ive tried mindfulness groups, and i still see my therapist every week. Ive even tried inpatient therapy for a more intense therapy, and that didnt work.
Thing is, i still am so close to killing myself every day. I cant function, had to drop out of school and lost all ability and desire to be the great person i used to be. I cant get out of bed anymore.
The crazy thing is, i have the most incredible wife in the world that understands how difficult it is to deal with depression. Her, and my dog are the the only reason im alive. I just feel like it would be so much easier on her if i wasnt here and she didnt have to deal with my crap.
Does any one else have treatment resistant depression like this? I dont want to be alone.. i just need someone to talk to. How do you motivate yourself to do anything?
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lucy32753 williamberg
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All the best to you
lorraine52317 williamberg
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i sincerely hope someone here will be able to answer your question. I just wanted to let you know that my heart goes out to you. The fact that you have tried so hard to get better without success is heart breaking.
i have had six months of depression and still not fully there yet.. I know the toll it takes on our spirit.
My prayers are with you and I really hope someone here can help you find a way forward.
God bless you x
williamberg lorraine52317
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elizabeth2244 williamberg
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Sorry you are feeling so depressed, that you feel nothing well work. Something has got to work you have a wonderful wife who loves you and understands you and you got your dog who loves you.
You are the only one deep inside who has to learn to love yourself. I have low self esteem and depression and anxieties and at times its hard on me but the Lord keeps me going. God is welling to help you and you need to turn to God for prayer to help you out of you depression
You are not a lone just pray to God that they can help you find the right medication for you because you are a good person. Write down affirmations and tell yourself that you are a good person
lorraine52317 elizabeth2244
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god bless
Lorraine x
williamberg elizabeth2244
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elizabeth2244 lorraine52317
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Its hard to deal with depression and anxieties but i just don't want him to do anything to himself
simon8173 williamberg
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williamberg simon8173
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mark65991 williamberg
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