Surgery.
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I feel that I'm balanced on eggshells here. See, I don't want to discourage anyone who's about to undergo surgery. For whatever spinal condition assails. However, I know with no doubt, that surergy is NOT an option for me. I was given only one option: fusion surgery. I've seen too many disasters as the result of that particular course to want to undertake it myself. And my GP supported me in my decision not to go ahead.
I suffer constant, intractable pain. The drugs no longer really ehlp. The life I believed I'd have at this stage of my life has become just something I once hoped for, but will never be realised.
My thoughts are, of course, with everyone who is facing surgery.
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susan47592 maggi7
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I really hope that you don't feel like you are walking on egg shells. People want a solution and often they feel like surgery will be the best option, However this is not always the case. In my situation I was told 85% of people had good recovery, I was in the 15%. It is something that we as individuals have to accept there is no magic solution. I hope you are okay xo
laura49003 maggi7
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you may find yourself dwn the line months even years to try it when you simply can't take anymore.. And if not hope that chronic pain eases with other methods. Must be so scary knowing people and hearing stories that fusion hasn't cured. I as an individual reached the point of i know all the risks and i am willing to take that chance as it was very disabling
sarah98681 maggi7
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gail17114 maggi7
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patricia4866 maggi7
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Patricia
laura49003 patricia4866
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when i read your post just now which is really encouraging and heartfelt you struck a chord with me nagging pain, that's what I started out with 4 years ago nagging back pain which i went to my doctor for and she gave me a voltarol gel and really didnt take it seriously, it calmed with ibroprufen and learned to live with it but of course it got worse and when the pain down my leg and bottom and lower back hit it was shocking. Week 8 nearly for me next Tuesday and today i went window shopping and carried nothing but a nice coffee and walked in the sun.it felt good. Tonight i have tightness in my hip but im sure im going to get this. Soreness and low back pain is there and my husband said i will get good and bad days, yesterday was better than today. I sometimes think how will I get physical again swimming, love with my husband, just getting into bed Log rolling isn't as effortless as i would like ha! I've no regrets about my fusion sneezing now is easy as pie! Before fusion because my 2 discs had
disintegrated it was bone rubbing bone and that was no fun
patricia4866 laura49003
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good nite Laura.
Patricia
laura49003 patricia4866
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i have not twisted this weekend. Seriously i feel ok today i had a twinge of pain in my lower back and buttock but it went and i haven't taken tramadol for 3 days. Week 8 on Tuesday. I slept on the couch last night as i was watching a movie and all comfy surrounded by cushions and duvets.
still not sleeping right through but getting a couple of hours straight.
Its sunny here and i am just about to head to the cemetary to put flowers for my stepson and going to sit for a drink in a local pub called the church and
relax. My back doesn't like sitting for long as i am sure you know so a light walk later.
hope you are doing well and haven't overdone it in your garden x
maggi7
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I'm at the point now when even getting out of bed of a morning is agonising. Everything I believed I'd be doing in my Autumn years has been abandoned.
Fusion surgery is notr for me: I have too many other health problems to make it a viable option. It would more than likely result in my being less mobile than prior to surgery - and would certainly result in a furtherance of my respiritory problems. Anaesthetic does strange things to me, you see. One of the effects is congestion of my lungs.
I'll never get any better than I am now. I have to accept that pain is part of my life. It limits my mobility. I cannot realise the dreams I had for this part of my life. So many walks I was going to undertake. All beyond my reach now.
The most painful part of it all is that I can't make the walk top the local cemetery - which is where the ashes of my elder son are interred. He died on 22nd November, 2012. It's uphill, a mile away from my home, to where his ashes lie you see. And I can't make the walk.
I have a wheelchair stashed away in the garden shed. I balk at using it. But, as I edge ever-closer to utter disablement, I wonder how my remaining son will cope with my incapacity. I had to cope with my mother's descent into dementia. It all-but killed my spirit. I don't want my son to face that when it comes to me beuing dependant in a different way. I dread the idea of being mentally alert, yet physically confined.
My daughter-in-law is a carer in a home for the elderly demented. She sees so many people who have been diminished. She tries to give the personal touch to each.
When my son - her husband -died -at her feet - she tried to revive him by means of her CPR training. It failed.
All of which is to say that some of us have been denied the opportunity to carry on. I live with never-ending pain. I'll never have fusion surgery; it wouldn't make my condition better.
And, yes, I DO feel like I'm on eggshells here. When most report positive results from surgery, I feel that I'm the spectre at the feast. The one lone, negative voice.
patricia4866 maggi7
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Nurse for over 33 yrs or I have personal experience. It has never been my intention to influence anyone one way or the other. So in saying that, I pray that it has lifted your spirits, for I can read between the lines and see that you aren't in a good place right now. Please don't give up. I am going to back out of patient.info now and wish everone God's speed.
Patricia
laura49003 maggi7
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in fact i admire your strength it is not easy living in constant pain and having other health issues.
i am thinking of you.
laura xx
laura49003 patricia4866
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I sought out this site to see others experiences and you have brought me comfort with your own experiences, i felt very alone but i am not
laura49003 patricia4866
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please dont back out of forum, i find your experience comforting and interesting xx