Surgery on Thurs 7th Jan 2010 ... not looking forward to it
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I finally have a date for the removal of my gallbladder. Despite all the pain and problems it has caused me, I can't say the prospect is one I am looking forward to.
I am of course worrying about possible problems as with any surgery there are a few. Even if that is not the case, reading about persistent diarrhoea is not something I really want to have to be dealing with.
On top of that, despite being keyhole, I am not keen on being left with scars.
I am only 29 and this has stopped me from getting on with my life. That being said, having constant diarrhoea will stop me from getting on with my life just the same.
And as for having multiple scars on my body, I don't really want anything else to give my self-esteem any more of a battering.
Maybe I am just being pessimistic, but I am finding it hard to be positive.
This damn problem has made me end up in hospital almost once a month for the past year, being put on a morphine drip, infections, and having to have ERCP ... TWICE!
I simply don't want to be depressed after the surgery, nor do I want one problem to simply be replaced by another set of problems.
Anyhow, I think I have wasted enough of your time (assuming anyone has read this ... :cry: )
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Gemini
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Marco01
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As it stands the surgery wont be going ahead after all. Due to 'severe weather conditions' it has been cancelled. You get a little bit of snow in this country and then all of a sudden everything stops working, including hospitals ... absolute f*cking unbelieveable.
Apparently all elective outpatient surgery has been cancelled ... I can't believe it. This is London, England ... not a third world country. I'm sure that snow does not disrupt things in Sweden, Norway, Finland, Russia, Germany, and just about every other part of Europe or the rest of the civilised world.
On top of that, they wont tell me when I will be rescheduled for. It may be over a months wait. I have been waiting for over a year to get this sorted and am now really, really P*SSED OFF.
This just makes me even more anxious and almost serves as some sort of sign that the surgery is a bad idea. Really not happy ... :x :cry: :x
JinnyJinxed
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I also live in London, and was scheduled to have surgery on the 22nd Dec 09. It was a long hard battle getting to that date, going through exactly those same doubts you have. Im 34, and have spent the best part of the last year in bed and in pain.
I was at the door ready to go, having not slept for 3 nights, or eaten in 5 days due to anxiety, when the hospital called and cancelled for the same reason they pulled out on you. It devastated me completely and I have been waiting for a date since. I have this afternoon got a call saying could I come in tomorrow afternoon....Noooooooo!!!!! was my panicked response - purely because I need to get my head straight as I am not convinced its such a good thing to have the gallbladder out. I took the cancellation as some sort of 'sign' that it wasn't meant to be. The relief when I'd convinced myself of the fact was sooo great I felt like I'd been given a get out of jail card.
The thing was - on the 23rd Dec I had such a bad attack. The pain was excruciating and I was begging my mum in tears, for a kitchen knife so I could do the surgery myself. I know it sounds melodramatic but omg! The pain. My mother actually removed all the knives and scissors she could find just in case I got up to attempt it. Then I started vomitting. So bad and so hard, like I've never experienced it in all my life, and I was scared. I really thought I'd be in for emergency surgery - a 12inch scar in the fat tissue which will leave me disfigured for the rest of my life, etc. Then a final heave, and I heard a weak click sound and actualy felt the stone shift. That was very very scary! Mum rang the emergency doctor as I refused to go to hospital, and refused an ambulance, and after that the pain subsided - I was given antibiotics, buscopan and painkillers, and told to rest. By the next evening I'd slept deeply, and waking up, I felt better, and the pain went away...in fact the gallbladder felt great!!!!! I found I could suddenly eat more - Oh my gosh - food is sooooo good !!!!! I ate little and often style, but I did it for all the hours I was awake - I just couldn't get enough! lol.Over Christmas I ate chocolate...ok - a lot of chocolate - nearly a third of a tin of Quality Streets, and cheese - OH MY GOD! Cheese is amazing!!!!! And I had a mouthful of a frankfurter....ok - that really didn't taste like I remembered and it tasted greasy so I spat it out! lol. Oh and I had a packet of crisps...4 years since the last one...that was ok for a few of them, but the taste of the grease and the texture was completely alien to me - so Dad finished those off! lol. But nothing - no sickness, no pain, no nothing - haven't had that in 4 long years. I kidded myself I will not need surgery and gosh - the time out of that thought was amazing!!!!!
I made plans and began to get my head into a 'work' frame of mind - and all because I thought I won't need surgery. I put myself back onto a low fat, sensible diet, but with more vareity in it and was loving it. Then a couple days ago, I started feeling sick. I immediately cut back to my chicken and apple juice only diet, but it didn't really help. Then last night I had a big attack out of the blue, with the pain spike shooting up over 2 hours instead of 4 or 5 gradually, followed by a smaller one this morning. I feel sick, depressed, upset, and am back in bed feeling like a herd of wildebeasts are trying to make their way out my side, as if they were making their escape, through a catflap, in a burning building! And there was I thinking I can cope with things as they were. I'm not so confident about that right now. What if next time the gallstone gets stuck and I get rushed in, and have no choice given to me other than the traditional surgery, or the 4 hole keyhole surgery???....At least with me saying yes to the scarless surgery, I get some control and that - all being well - I have jus
Miss_McG87
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Gemini
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Please don't put yourself through this anguish. The outcome of the op far outweighs not having it at all.
Lecture over xx
vixen
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Miss_McG87
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you gallbladder was gangerious? what were the symptomns you had?
i have continous pain in my sides from morning through night, but doctors not intrested really i dont even think they've ever even touched my side to place the discomfort.
xxx