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I am diagnosed with depression anxiety and panic disorder. I have previously been on pristiq and due to the fact that I don't find it helping me the psych is changing me to zoloft. I am not really seeing a difference yet but I know it will take time. I have been so obsessive lately it's hard to function. My newest obsession is that I have lymphoma. I have a swollen lymph node in my neck for the last month. I had it checked out by the dr and she said it was good that it moved and wasn't rock hard and she checked my underarms and groin to make sure fhere were no other ones which she said there was t. She also had me get bloodwork and all came back fine. That isn't good enough for me because I know this is bad but I have been obsessively googling and I see a lot of people and drs that say lymphoma doesn't really show up in the blood. A lot of these people had normal bloodwodk and it was hard for them to be diagnosed besides a biopsy. The only other symptom I'm freaking out about is that about a month ago I had extreme itchiness which apparantly is a symptom of lymphoma. The dr thinks it's unrelated and seems to think if I had lymphoma it would show in my blood. Also I'm worried because I smoke and am trying to quit. I quit for a while but the past six months due to my anxiety I've been smoking again so I'm really worried about csncer now. This all started too becusse I have a blue/purple bump in my mouth for two months now and then like a white line going from the bottom of my mouth to the front- the other day I woke up and the whole bottom line was swelled up. I saw the dentist and he doesn't think anything looks like csncer and he had a name for the line- he thinks I may be grinding my teeth at night but of course I think it's cancer. He referred me to the oral surgeon to check it out and I go on Thursday. My family and bf think I am crazy and are pretty fed up with me. They don't get how real this is to me. I can't focus at work I just want to hysterically cry because I just can't stop. Any insight would be greatly appreciated.
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