Taking Sertraline: Do we really know what is happening with our own health ?

I have read so many stories about other peoples experiences with taking different medications.  A lot of comments just relay text book symptoms or mimic what a Doctor has said.

If you are taking an SSRI or any meds for that matter - listen to your body and how you feel, is there really a reaction ?  or do you just believe there is... and that is what makes it so.

Medications like SSRIs really confuse me, because of the supposed delay of reaction or help they offer.

If I diazepam, etizolam or even recreationally an ectasy pill - I for sure KNOW that it has a reaction with me.  You can feel it.

I'm learning that SSRIs seem to be very subtle in their benefits, coming on gradually over weeks of months ( although I'm not 100% positive, that could just be an excuse to stall you into believing or not believing they work - like a medicinal dosage limbo dance )

There are so many factors and variables to take into consideration in our daily lives, it is almost impossible to track the effects of a medication that has a delayed onset - and that is why I am very mistrusting of SSRIs.

I have taken Sertraline for 8 weeks. For 4 weeks I was on 50mg.. I had nausea and diarrhea for 7 days at the start ( but who knows if if was the medication or perhaps it was because I was drinking quite a bit of strong coffee.. then there was an illness going around at the time too... some of my family were ill .. so who knows ! ? )

Anyway, I " think " my mood improved, but i wasn't sure.

After 4 weeks, I raised to 100mg per day... I only lasted 7 days doing this, I did get noticably sick with nausea, diarrhea and my pupils were uncomfortably dialted mostly in the morning ( so I was very sensitive to light obviously )

I took myself back down to 50mg... and I settled down a little.

Then last week I became dismayed with the progress I was making imaging that the meds weren't helping ( I get paranoid about Doctors and big pharmas and sometimes I imagine they are trying to do us ill not good.. sometimes I imagine they are trying to making us all sick and dead) - yes maybe it is delusional to think like this, but can you blame me, the Internet is an unregulated bucket of propaganda and filth sometimes... you have to step away from youTube now and again, realise that people can say anything and someone will possibly believe it or not  - anyway so I stopped Sertraline completely 8 days ago!

I first I was ok, then after a few days, I started to feel like the old me.  You may think that is good, but its not.  The old me sucks.  I get stressed out so easily, I get angry, I have constant angry intrusive thoughts about people, celebrities, things I've seen and stuff people say.

Its like there is no off switch with my negative thoughts... I could feel myself getting physically sick and this is without the sertraline !

I went back on to my 50mg dose a few days ago, and I feel better.  I have a more positive mood and I feel calmer.

I suppose you have to stop taking a medication sometimes just to confirm if it is helping you or hindering you.

Some may say it is not normal to rely on a medication or become addicted or dependant on a medication - but people need water to live dont they ?  What happens when you dont eat food ? ... need sleep ?  ... ..some smoke a cig, or drink a glass of wine every lunch time.

Everyone has ways of coping with life, life is suffering... and if you can do something that makes it that little easier to exist.. then bloody well do it.

Take a chill pill ... your health will love you for it.   As someone who has experienced ill physical health as a direct response to my upset and negative thoughts.  I can confirm that medications like valium, etizolam and mdma are a blessing in small doses.

I think the trick is... just enough.

Do you like chocolate ?  ...yeah me too... but If I eat two large bars I get sick.

Meds aren't the devil some make them out to be, I used to think an organic diet of fruit and vegetables would make me feel more relaxed and happier... I tried that for years... and it didn't !   ....I'm not sure what to believe anymore.

I have noticed that I seem to be a better person when I am on drugs and going by the history books I think that perhaps if the damn Christian churches hadn't been so DOWN on " Alchemy " - which was the devils work, perhaps society wouldn't of been so damn cruel and beast like.

Medications are progression.

Drugs make life tolerable and sometimes really pleasant - there is not honor in struggling and sweating your way though life... take a chill pill :D

I'll continue to take Sertraline and I will pop a etizolam just like someone might vape, smoke or take a drink - if I need to be calm or at peace.

Don't believe the hype, alchemy is a blessing used in the correct manner and dosage.

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