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I can't go on like this anymore, for over a year now I've been feeling anxious daily. I've cancelled two holiday, I've stopped going out, I wake up every morning being sick with anxiety because I have to travel to work alone. I have epilepsy and a lot of my anxiety revolves around having a seizure, specifically in public or when alone. I had a big seizure a year ago for the first time in six years, in those six years I was great, I had the usual worries but I'd go out, have fun, go abroad on holiday. Now my life has come to a grinding halt.
Because my anxiety is health related, I'm so scared of taking medication. I was on Citalopram when I was 17 and seemed to be OK with it, I was on it for 18 months, weaned myself off and all was good. I was prescribed sertraline last year but took it for three days and felt so much worse that I couldn't continue. I know the drugs can make you feel worse before you feel better but I just could get past that first stage. Today I woke up and couldn't even get to the bathroom before being sick, my gut is wrecked, I'm OK on weekends and don't wake up feeling terrible because I know I don't have to go out on my own.
So I've got a Doctors appointment today at 10:30am and I'm just gonna have to take the plunge and ask to try Citalopram again, and also ask for a referral to a psychiatrist. I've tried counselling and that had no effect.
I'm just so scared of meds, anyone else with a fear of meds actually took them and felt better for it?
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