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I've been suspecting BPD for a very long time and was recently 'officially' diagnosed with it. It kind of feels amazing and terrible at the same time - at least now I can relate to symptoms and know that they are not my fault.
However, I really want to tell my mum about it. She's not been very supportive in the past with mental illness (I've had severe anxiety and depression for over ten years) and wouldn't understand. However, I want to tell her because I know I have had angry outbursts at her before and I want to basically apologize.
The thing is, my psychiatrist said I didn't develop properly as a kid due to domestic goings on, partly because of my mum. So I almost feel it's her fault, for not doing anything about my abusive step-father.
I just don't know how to go ahead explaining this to her without her thinking I am blaming her or feeling sorry for myself. If anyone has any good resources, that'd be great!
Also, I don't live with her anymore, I am 29 and live in Leicester, she lives in North Wales. If I try and talk to her irl about things then she seems to just change the subject so I feel an informative email might be best. Then she can call me and ask any questions she might have.
Any advice is welcomed! And nice to meet you all, I hope you're doing well!
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