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I'm trying to change my life and set up a new business. I have the skills and experience in what I do but never gone it alone.
I'm 43, single and no kids. I don't have much savings and I'm taking some risks here but I feel the regret of not trying will haunt me when I'm older. It haunts me now. I'm taking steps Day by day to try.
The problem is at night. I get overwhelmed by a feeling of doom and the need to run away and hide. The realisation that my mental health problems have made it difficult to maintain relationships and I've missed out on motherhood fill me with grief. Even though I could have a brighter future I fear I'll mess it up and will be really lonely.
In the morning I feel a little better but so so tired from not sleeping.
I keep telling myself that anxiety is a bad habit and these fears are not reality. This sometimes works, but other times it's like the voice of truth, that people like me won't make it in life.
I so much want to learn how to manage my mind better. I'm going to start meditating regularly to see if I can soothe my overactive fearful mind.
It's a burden and getting in the way of me making progress.
Anyone else found meditation and mindfulness helpful? Especially for sleep?
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