The end for me

I feel like ending it so many times, Becca. But eventually, days come that I can enjoy, and I feel blessed I found the strength to carry on.

Yes you might suffer for a long time. Yes it will be difficult. But there will always be days when you feel blessed.

I'm happy to talk.

Hi Becca,

The result of ending it all is permanent but the way you are feeling right now is NOT permanent. You can get past the way you are feeling right now. I don't know if you have ever had thoughts like this before but if you have then think back to how you got through it that time. Just take one minute at a time to put off your plans, talk to us on here, call a friend, make a cake. Talk to us

becca 15, Hope you get this. Hold on Becca, Come down to me and see if we can get you feeling stronger. OK I am much older than you but that doesnt matter. Please reply. I am serious in my offer to help.

I've arrived at the place I want to do it. There is no point thinking tomorrow is going to be any different, I have felt low and suicidal for months. I am homeless and have nothing to keep me going

DON'T DO WHATEVER YOU'RE THINKING OF DOING

Becca, I have sent you a private message, please listen to my advice and take some time to talk to someone about how you are feeling......

This is the number for Samaritans08457 90 90 90 (UK) or1850 60 90 90 (ROI)

Or if you would prefer to not have to talk you can email them jo@samaritans.org

and they reply as soon as they can.

Best to call they so you can talk to someone straight away.

Becca, please listen to my advice and give Samaritans a call

08457 90 90 90 (UK)

1850 60 90 90 (ROI)

Hello there Becca, I do hope you have halted any plans you may have made regarding your decision.

Depression is a lifetime disease that, at times, can completely consume and overwhelm you, I know this and I know how it can feel to have these emotional roller coasters where it seems that no-one understands...

Which is true, I cannot simply understand what you are going through (depression is unique to each person, although there are generic symptoms we all go through).

The NHS system is flawed in its preparation for these kinds of illnesses, but this is largely due to the sheer volume of people who seek help from them... Whether warranted or not.

It is clear you are not in a great place, and no amount of drugs will aid you in the long term (personally the short term use or prescribed drugs did no good for me) but there are ways to cope with how you are feeling!

A few people I have read have suggested day by day/ minute by minute... Which is a great start.

There are also (as mentioned by others) lines such as Samaritans which can be useful for the more intimate times.

But the most effective method right now is for you to take a breath and realise 'you are not alone'. It is true that a positive mind will increase a more positive outlook. I'll be honest and tell you that it sucks to begin with, thinking positive takes a great amount of effort and you feel ridiculous in your efforts to consciously think of good things to think or say...

Start simple:

Say nice things out loud (maybe a compliment to a friend) and for every compliment you give, give one to yourself.

Make a list of nice things about yourself and say them (in your head or out loud) EVERYDAY!! You may not feel like they are true or you have have made them up, thinking about someone else as you made the list... But over time they begin to sound better.. Until one day you realise that you genuinely believe what you are saying about yourself!

THE FOLLOWING WILL AID CREATIVE THOUGHTS, and will also help release some feel good vibes!

When in doubt, read something (fiction, education, interest, hobby) or do something creative... Just nothing magazine related or current affairs... I find Jane Austen a huge inspiration.

As I have said, I really hope you get this, and if you have read this far then please go one step farther and try to implement at least one of the above methods into the time that follows.

Best Wishes for you

Dan

Becca i hope this message finds you still with us. I know life is very hard and ten times worse when you are suffering from depression I struggle every day, then what makes it worse is when I have to fave challenges.

If you are on the verge of ending your life because you cannot find another way out. STOP!! You can walk into the accident and emergency department and tell the receptionist they will bring out a psychiatric nurse.

If you are really bad they will keep you in. This will bump you straight up the therapy list.

Hi,

Thank you to everyone who took the time and effort to reply. Obviously I am still here. Friday was such a bad day and I was so serious with my plans but then I guess when it comes to actually doing it, it's much more difficult than I thought.

I really am struggling lately. I've not been well enough to work for months and I've lost my house and I am just so bored every day I struggle to see the point in me being in this world when I don't bring anything to it. When I become that low I am just impossible to talk any sense into and I really do only see the worst in everything and don't see any light at the end of the tunnel. I'm sure a lot of you know how I feel, so thank you for posting messages for me x

Hi Becca, so glad to to hear from you . xx

Good to know you're still with us Becca. Keep your chin up!