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The Gift....I think I have it AGAIN!

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Misssy2
Misssy2

Back in 2005..something came over me and I was able to stop drinking with little cravings and no effort.  I called it "The Gift". for me it was a gift from God.

I had drank all the years prior to that.  I had drank from when I was 17 until I reached 41 in 2005.

Then I stopped in 2005 until 2014 (8 years).

Then sh*t hit the fan in my life...I quit a really good career..and I thought I could have a 6 pack...WRONG!

For the past 3 years I have been struggling and I have been in and out of the hospital due to my drinking.  I have never had the feeling of the "gift" since 2005.

The last time I left the hospital was Oct 5th...only a month ago...and just last week..I fell and sprained my ankle very badly...and I was housebound and couch bound...and it came to my surprise that as depressed, anxious and sad as I was...I was not thinking of a drink.

ODD...So, then after that..it seemed every channel I put the TV on there was a "message" in whatever show I landed on....I really think that I have "The Gift" once again...and this time I am not letting it go!

Anyone who has stopped drinking for any period of time and have been doing well?  Do NOT EVER...think it is ok to pick up a drink or think that things will just go back to normal after a drink...they don't...they may never..If you currently have "The Gift" cherish it!

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  • peter97822
    peter97822 Misssy2

    Posted

    This is great news Misssy - brilliant! And quite inspiring for me as I make (yet another) attempt to go sober. All power to you! Keep us posted. x
  • TheToad
    TheToad Misssy2

    Posted

    Good advice Missy. Like you, I was able to stop by myself coming up to ten years ago and yes, the temptation is [u]still [/u]there. Maybe just one at Christmas etc? But so far, have said no thanks!  Keep up the good work. biggrin

    • Misssy2
      Misssy2 TheToad

      Posted

      Don't ever give into that temptation john..I'm telling you it is not worth it.

      Thank you for your post and Congratulations on 10 years! almost smile

  • vickylou
    vickylou Misssy2

    Posted

    Hi misssy

    i didnt realise you'd been in hospital again. What happened was it alcohol related. I was away first two weeks in October so must have missed it. Anyway, I hope your feeling better now.

    I disagree slightly in that I can go two or three months without a drink, then a social event, holiday etc will come up and I will drink then. So I can pick up a drink when I want without it ending in a binge and then go back to not drinking.

    however, having said that, and maybe this is what you meant. I went four years without a drink, then was given a wine and soda when I'd asked for lime and soda and enjoyed it. In retrospect, I should have just left it instead of having three more!

    • Misssy2
      Misssy2 vickylou

      Posted

      Good to see you Vicky!

      Yes, what I feel is different....I don't feel like I EVER need to drink again..not sure what happened but glad it did!

      And yes, I was in the hospital again...alcohol related.

       

    • vickylou
      vickylou Misssy2

      Posted

      Sorry to hear that as you were doing so well. Are you able to pinpoint what triggered it off. Half the time when I used to go off on a binge, I never knew what started it

      anyway what's done is done. Important to take each day a step at a time,  ew day, new beginnings .

      Take care

  • ihavenonickname
    ihavenonickname Misssy2

    Posted

    Yes, do not ever return to alcohol.

    Good for you Missy...

    How is the ankle doing?

    kind regards

    judith

    • Misssy2
      Misssy2 ihavenonickname

      Posted

      Ankle has not healed completely (thank you for asking).

      It has been torturus...first time I ever had a "sprained" ankle.

      I was told it was "severe"...and this is over 2 weeks...still have a significant lump on the outer side of my ankle..not comfortable in my high tops.

      The drinking..I still feel confident that I won't drink this time!

      Thank God.

  • ihavenonickname
    ihavenonickname Misssy2

    Posted

    Oh Misssy.

    Praise the Good Lord...how many days sober do you have?

    I know, the lump on the outside liked to have driven me nuts...I would ice and elevate and get my foot in a shoe...to have the ankle swell and swallow my shoe!

    big hugs

    judith

    • Misssy2
      Misssy2 ihavenonickname

      Posted

      hi ihavenonickname....I am a little over a month sober now.

      And very happy about it.

      Finally sleeping better.

      Finally much less anxiety.

      Finally able to function to do things I want to do.

      Finally FREE.

      smile

       

    • ihavenonickname
      ihavenonickname Misssy2

      Posted

      Oh Misssy

      How absolutely wonderful to hear.

      I know this took so much courage, so much patience, and an awful lot of hard work!

      Gois on you!

      Keep up the hard work

      big hugs

      judith

    • Misssy2
      Misssy2 TheToad

      Posted

       thank you john!

      its also great to feel this way.

      I was at a football game today and had a brief thought...of a beer.

      BUT...in 2005 I also had "brief" thoughts.

      The important thing is..that I got past it smile

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