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Well, ive read alot of peoples stories for a few years now n thought id write mine to help someone else or just to let them know this is a loooong struggle to deal with alone n where no one understands where you are coming from.
I got over active thyroids (graves disease) and diabetes when I was 16 and my dad had died, which literally felt as though my heart ripped in half. I'm 21 now and still on medication carbamozile 40mg and propanol
This disease has damaged my body so much that I think when my hyperthyroidism clears up it will still have the biggest effect on my bones and muscles lately I have had a horrible feeling in my shoulder like it isnt correctly in its socket n falling out which feels like someone is ripping my arm off, my goiter is tight n quite a big bump, I can no longer work as ny heart rate is way too fast even when walkin for 30 seconds I live four flights up in my block no lift which of course makes me want to kill myself just on the second floor.
I cant stand being in sun or heat as when I do my eyes cant open and I get this burning n strained feeling behind my eyes constantly my teeth are getting chipped which I reckon is because my bones are weak and I find it hard to breath these days, awaiting surgery although they changed ther mind and said they will try radio iodine treatment first. My state of mind is always angry and irritated
Anyone else feel crap lol? Im pretty sure I think about dying 6 times a day and I cant even explain how I feel mentally anymore.
Also I have found if you work a fast paced job just let it go fall asleep in the staff room, after a shift put ur legs on the wall so the blood circulates
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