There's no point to living anymore.

Hello Maria,

I too found this site by accident. It's amazing the things we find or the people we meet, when we are at our lowest, or facing a challenging time.

It really sounds like you could use a bit of a chat from a caring, empathetic soul. I hope we can help be there for you along the way...

It sounds like it might be time you had a chat to your dr to see what they could suggest as far as support for your son goes. It really does sound like you are so overwhelmed with it all. Perhaps if you had some help with your son, it would leave you the time and energy to find a part time job (extra money and a great routine to have), meet some friends, join some support groups or even pick up a hobby.

It wouldn't hurt to speak to a professional either.

I really want to see you through this dear. You sound like such a lovely person. I wish there was something I could do for you!

Would you like my email address for some personal conversation?

Sending you all my love and positive energy!

And like I say to everyone...JUST KEEP SWIMMING!

Elly

Don't give up just yet. I know it feels so painful and never ending but a little love, help and support would go such a long way!

You sound like a lovely, smart and above all, a very caring person who deserves to be happy and to live a peaceful and meaningful life.

Hi,

I have spent the last 3 weeks hoping to stop people ending their lives.

All have a common connection, a feeling of worthlessness.

You have to approach your worth from a different angle. You go out to buy food, not much, youv'e only got £5 left. You stand at the pavement edge waiting to cross safely.

A young child steps out into the road, without thinking you grab their arm and pull them out of harms way. That child grows up to become a Professor, or Surgeon or bringer of peace to the world.

Your action ,long forgotten, turns out to be world changing.

We are all here for a reason, good or bad, we all make a difference, yes, I know that child you saved could be another Hitler, Staines or whatever, but we don't decide other people's actions, only our own.

I first came on this site because I had cervical stenosis and spondylosis with myolepathy, since then I have been diagnosed with malignant melanoma, and, 1 hour ago I have been told at the Memory clinic that I should prepare myself for possible diagnosis of Vascular Dementia.

I used to be a good boy, why me , the world hates me , I might as well kill myself now .

Or on the other hand suck it up and get on with life.

Mike.

Life throws a lot of negatives to us. This is hard to handle with no help. If you can go to facility that cares for you based on income and helps depression. No matter how bad things are now they can get better. Mental health services are sometimes not looked into due to embaressment or thinking your not crazy. This care is to help people and no one thinks your crazy. You don't have to let anyone know your being treated. You need help to handle what life has dealt you. Please don't give up. Everyone on this depression site has felt as you do. They have different problems but we all need help and admitting this is the first step. The doctor can not discuss anything you talk about to anyone. Privacy is taken very seriously. You need to be truthful and hold nothing back. Do what he or she tells you and take meds as directed, never stop meds without doctors orders. I tried to kill myself mor than once and I know how lonley and desperate you feel. Im glad I didn't succeed. I hate hearing how you feel and all your problems. Please promise me you will see a doctor and not harm your self. I pray you find comfort soon and I want to hear how you are. Understanding how we feel is not known by those that never experience it. You can explain till your exhausted but it won't help 95% of he time. We are here to help each other and care deeply about you. Let us help and come back to vent or what ever you need. We are here. God bless and keep you. Barbara

You must go to the doctor an she can refer you to a counsellor . Don't suffer alone x

How are you feeling having written it all down angel? 

I found this forum because i was suicidal and i'm so pleased i did. To know that there's so many people struggling and so supportive and giving is such a massive comfort.

My partner is also useless when it comes to matters of the mind....! 

Keep us updated xx

You had a life very much the same as me. I eventually lost my Hen Pecked father, and we also were forced to sell a family home.

We eventually moved away and we never told my family members where we were going. We have now retired and live in a cottage in the countryside on the Scottish Border.

I am not saying start again, unless you want to, all I do say is sometimes we need to run to the hills and form a new life. It is very liberating.

If not already talk to your GP, get a dog and be dynamic in your thoughts and actions. Life is to short and it is up to us to make changes to increase our happiness. I look back to a past where thers tried to rule our lives and no-one should ever allow that to happen

Grasp a new way forward especially if you feel lacking in where you are now

BOB

Hi Maria,

You say you've made no impact on the world. You take care of your disabled son and have a husband you describe as a good man. I'm sure they wouldn't agree with your assessment of the impact you have had.

Go to your doctor and tell him how you feel. You don't have to go through this alone. Please talk to someone and ask for help. You said your husband has no empathy, but have you ever tried to talk to him about your feelings. A lot of men can seem indifferent because they feel uncomfortable discussing their feelings. Give him a chance to support you and be there for you now. If he loves you he will want to help you be happy. No matter what else happens though, please talk to your doctor and tell him everything you are going through and feeling.

Please let me know how you get on.

Good luck,

Phyl

Hi,

Many thanks for your words of support.

There is a rock in my life. Always there when needed, always ready to help me.

I am a man of short hight and long width ( 5 ft 6 in X 15 stone ). My rock, my beautiful wife of 46 years, is tiny in comparison but enormous in loving and giving.

I can recognise how hard it must be for those on this site that do not get that help and support, it makes a big,big difference, that's why we are important here, helping and supporting each other.

Best wishes to all of you.

Mike.

things may seem rough to you but at least you have a husband and a son and have prolly experienced love prolly have at least one friend too....you could be me and not have a single friend to contact and never have experienced any romance ever at 31.....you have a husband and son at least your not completely all alone and have experienced love and romance cuz i bet they both love you a lot and you are def important to them and nobody is perfect....I'm sorry you feel that way life is tough but it could be worse so keep your head up and count your blessings all tha best

hi Maria, that is possibly one of the hardest things i have read for a while.... you've had such a tough time, i am not surprised you are now struggling, poor you, how have you stayed so strong for so long? what you're doing is releasing the sadness that you've held in. that's ok to do, don't let anyone tell you anything different. i am 50 and have lost my dad too, i know how you feel, it's not easy to cope with.... just a day at a time and if it gets too tough ask for help, it's not weakness it's self care....