Things moving on...........but?
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Well now nearly 23 weeks po new knee cap & metal trochlea. Knee is finally beginning to settle down and I'm feeling a bit happier in myself, even though I still have odd occasions when I get a bit weepy.
One thing I would like to ask is does anyone feel a little vulnerable when walking......I have times when I just walk normally and then I remember what's in my knee and it makes my stomach flip over in fear......stupid or what?
I must say that since my op I have become acutely aware of everything around me......people rushing about, steps, uneven ground (my worst nightmare is tumbling!) but I'm hopeful that even if it takes a while, I'll soon be treating all these things as normal!
Before I had my op I was a very happy go lucky person who just got on with life......I do hope I soon return to that!
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ElaineA pam1313
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I agree that since my op I too am very wary of everything around me. I won't go into town alone or on Market days or Saturday as it is too busy. I am constantly watching the ground when walking outside, which I won't do on my own either. I too am terrified of falling over. If I was on my own, how on earth would I get back up. I always use my stick outdoors too.
I hope your right in that soon we will not even think about it.
patsyrose pam1313
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I have felt very vulnerable with both of my knees and it is so tiring having to think about things when you go out, or even indoors. People who have never had it done don't understand how scary that is.
My second knee has just been a nightmare and I've not been able to go on a train for a year now (my favourite thing is going to London regularly for the theatre). I'm back to walking with a crutch again and can't even enjoy a walk round the shops. At least with the crutch people are generally more careful with you, but it's hard.
My first knee is lovely now and I don't really think about it...but I long to be able to walk properly again.
you are doing very well.
Patsy
Clarkey1962 pam1313
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cheryl90571 pam1313
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I know what you mean about that nervous feeling!
It made me squeamish just to LOOK at my incision! I remember thinking, "I am going to STAND on this new knee???!!!"
Then, after standing, I would say to myself, "I'm going to actually WALK on this new knee???!!!"
At each new milestone there was this feeling of being unsure how this NEW TASK was going to go!
I guess for me the best thing was doing a lot of moving around in bed where I felt safe. Then it was feeling the safety of having my walker when I stood and began to walk.
When I moved to my CANE I practiced A LOT right in my house before ever going outside with it or even out in public.
I love being outside, so my yard and my garden were goals for me. I had my Total Knee Replacement in June, so I was VERY ANXIOUS to get practicing so I could get OUTSIDE!
When outside I used my walker at first. It got in my way as I was trying to water. I then used my CANE. Then THAT started to annoy me. I was trying to move water hose AND hold the cane. Not easy!
I remembered my physical therapist talking about lifting and bending my legs to regain a more normal gait as I walked. (I had been shuffling for a number of YEARS with this crazy arthritis!) I thought, "Maybe being outside on this soft grass which is, of course, UNEVEN with sticks here and there and walnuts and the occasional MOLE HOLE could the the best TRAINING GROUND for practicing my walking AND get my watering and gardening done at the same time!
Well, it has WORKED! Between physical therapy, doing my practice inside my house for confidence-building, and my practice outside on UNEVEN grassy areas, I now am able to go without my CANE now and can be FREE!
It feels GREAT!
Another reason for my urgency about this is that in six weeks I go in for a Total Knee Replacement on my OTHER KNEE! I really wanted to get this FIRST KNEE strong because it will have to be my GOOD KNEE in just six more weeks.
Be confident, practice where you feel safe, build up those leg muscles, and you will soon be moving along just as you HOPED you would be!
Looking forward to reading about your successes!
caroline46398 pam1313
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irish_linda pam1313
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pam1313 irish_linda
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Hubby and I have just booked a few days away to the Cotswolds.....why am I excited and terrified at the same time about going? I used to love going away with my hubby so to feel like this is irrational I know.....I'm hoping at some point this fear will pass.......you'll hear me shriek like a banshee when I return to normal lol!
patsyrose pam1313
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Hope you enjoy your trip to The Cotswolds...such a lovely place.
My Dad and I are off to Swaffham but, unfortunately, I have to do the driving.
I shall struggle to walk, but need the change of scene!
irish_linda pam1313
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pam1313 irish_linda
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Not been too bad today, so beginning to look forward to our trip!
irish_linda pam1313
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pam1313 irish_linda
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Good job my husband loves me no matter what.......'coz I've laughed, cried, used every swear word known to man, looked dog rough more times than not and our love life is currently extinct. Am also menopausal!
I'm either taking tablets for something, putting cream on and massaging, exercising to within an inch of my life, elevating, icing or resting......bloody hell I'm worn out........23 weeks and still counting. I think I might write a book.
Clarkey1962 pam1313
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