Think I'm dying
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Hey, so I had my first panic attack 3 weeks ago, completely out of the blue. While I was lying in bed watching TV. I was unaware it was a panic attack, and my immediate thought was that I was about to drop dead any second. Ever since that panic attack iv had one pretty much every night. And everytime I think I am about to die. Meaning I beg whoever is with me to call an ambulance, I have been put on beta blockers, and anti depressants as well as been given diazepam's for real bad times. (Although I haven't started taking the anti depressants yet). I now sit up every nigh, freaking out, crying, checking my pulse. Thinking I'm about to drop dead, untill about half 4 in the morning, when I drift off, iv managed to convince myself that there is something underlying my panic attacks and that I'm going to die anytime. I wake up from my sleep each morning, shocked that I'm still alive, everynight seems to be the same routine. Of me getting into bed, then il get a headache and start to feel dizzy and light headed, with blurred vision. Iv had my eyes tested, my pulse checked, iv been checked for diabetes, and had my blood tested as well as blood pressure, and it has all come back fine. But I just can't get it out my head, and can't live like this anymore
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tracey82876 geeodoherty
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geeodoherty tracey82876
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nakia16774 tracey82876
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Dannie1989 geeodoherty
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Just thought a bit of experience might help.
I started the same as you when I was around 16, out of the blue started having panic attacks, only ever at night, bad sleeping pattern, days without eating etc etc.
I'm now 24, on an antidepressant and a beta blocker and had prescribed a 7 day supply of diazepam.
I can tell you from experience that taking the beta blockers without the antidepressants is basically allowing yourself to feel down which leads to intrusive thoughts which, as you know, leads to a panic attack, but then you're telling your body its not allowed to have a panic attack to alleviate the fear, no wonder you're feeling so crappy mate.
My suggestion, start the antidepressants now, within 4-8 weeks you'll be where I am now, completely at ease with myself and panic attack free, regular sleeping and eating and being able to get on with my day and I have Thanatophobia so I think that's an accomplishment all on it's own, don't mean to blow my own trumpet, but I have a fear of my inevitable death and not being able to do anything about it, not dying whilst having a panic attack. I stick by that if these meds can work for me then they cam work for anyone, including you.
Take whatever the doctor prescribed you and you'll be feeling better in no time.
Now I'm not saying this will be the end of your anxiety or depression but therapy should help with that, CBT (cognitive behavioural therapy) to be more specific.
A combination of meds and therapy should have you back to your old self in no time and off the meds quicker.
Hope you take the advice and are feeling a little happier soon.
Danielle
geeodoherty Dannie1989
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Dannie1989 geeodoherty
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Your propranolol will help keep your panic attacks under control but if you feel you need that extra push then don't be afraid to ask your doctor for a Benzene ie Diazepam to just take the edge off so you can sort your head out whilst adjusting.
I hope to hear you're doing much better very soon and I'm glad you've taken the advice.
Best of luck
Danielle
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rosariocristina geeodoherty
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I had...
-panic attacks
-dizzy all the time
-blurred vision
- constant headaches
- spots in my vision
-depression.. though i think it was cause by feeling ill all the time.
-pinching in the brain.. like a stabbing in one spot.
I travel outside the country and notice that i didnt feel sick at all! So something in my house or work was causing me this.. .....
I left my job for two months and it wasnt that.
I left my house but i continued to feel ill.
Then i stopped using my car and OH MY GOD!!!
EVERYTHING STOPPED!
My car was killing me.. gasoline fumes where poisoning me and slowly killing me.
If it is just a coincidence then I dont get it... why did i as soon as i got in my car the first day ater a month.. i got a terrible headache and my heart was pounding hard and felt so much anxiety... i sold my car and i am doing very well.
derek76 rosariocristina
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nakia16774 geeodoherty
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martin647 geeodoherty
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For me, there was a lot of 'stuff' going on, mostly social fear I guess but, the important thing I wanted to share to anyone dealing with this-and that's if it is severe anxiety disorder and not something else far more serious needing medical attention but, there is a way without medication. The first step is talking about it with someone. Educating yourself and learning to cope with it. While I did use medication in the beginning-it was mainly due because I didn't know what else to do till speaking to a very smart doctor who said that I could master techniques to eliminate these effects. It is after all a mental condition-why not use a mental solution to fight it off? For me, it worked. I began to take notice when these attacks would come. I'd feel my body internally, my hands, my feet planted on the ground and how my mind used to try to take my conscious from me.
I'd take control by telling myself that this is not something I want to happen and even ask myself, why is it happening? I'm not scared of anything or anyone. I'm not going to let this take over me any more!!
I did things like that and here I am years later, I have yet to have a full blown attack that knocks me off my feet! I feel it coming but then I pretty much self talk myself out of it.
I know it's hard. This ** with me for many years before I was even brave enough to admit that I had this problem. I was ashamed of it and these days, we're in a whole different time where men aren't afraid to talk about things like this anymore. The only problem of today I see is that we're so quick to take a pill for every thing. you don't need a special pill for everything. That's something you and every one else are going to have to find out for yourselves however because some of us may need something-but I doubt it..Good luck to every one. Anyone beginning to experience this for the first time and are reading this, I know it isn't no joke but I tell you this man, you can beat it. Don't let it * with you! More than likely it's some underlying * that happened to you that went undealt with as a child or something similar to that. It's important to always be honest with yourself and face all of your demons. Don't allow anything to go unnoticed for I promise you, our make up has a way to reveal themselves one way or another..
Good luck
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situsshar geeodoherty
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I am 21 i feel the same problem, last few months I felt my heart tooooo much high and now a days I feel huge headache and every symptoms starts with panic attack in no time usually at nights.I really can't sleep a single night for a long time for this. I was about to die few times for these kind of panic attack. I checked my heart, thats fine.I just cant live like this. sometimes I feel pain everywhere that comes in my mind. is it nervous system disorder? will I ever be okey??
nathans8823 geeodoherty
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