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matthew7979
matthew7979

I have been sober almost eleven months now.  I have worked hard at sobriety and I feel as if it was not as hard for me, due to the fact that I am a binge drinker by nature.  So I just took the binge out of my nature.  Recently, my mom has fallen ill and is in the hospital.  This has been the first time when I have really craved a beer.  I cannot seem to be able to rationlize me not having a beer.  This is all so new to me.  Crap...

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  • olivo
    olivo matthew7979

    Posted

    Hang on in there! Your mum needs you especially no, to be there for her, and not drunk!!  You CAN do this.  x
    • matthew7979
      matthew7979 olivo

      Posted

      I will stay sober for the time being.  No promises for the future.  lol 
  • Jackie_1964
    Jackie_1964 matthew7979

    Posted

    Yes be strong Mathew you can do this you have done so well please be strong☺
    • matthew7979
      matthew7979 Jackie_1964

      Posted

      Now is not the time for sure.  But I do not know if I can keep this up forever.
  • lynne84395
    lynne84395 matthew7979

    Posted

    Wow you have done amazingly well don't give up now. Keep going you will get through this imGine if you got an emergency call to go to the hospital and you were drunk. Easy to say but this is worth a try.

    good luck, hope your Mother gets well soon.

    • matthew7979
      matthew7979 lynne84395

      Posted

      I would not forgive myself if I was called to go to the hospital and I could not.  Thanks!
  • patricia44773
    patricia44773 matthew7979

    Posted

    Perhaps your subconscious is finding an excuse to get you to give in to the demon drink again.  Don't give into it for your Mum's sake, she needs you sober.

    I hope she comes through this alright....and you too.

    • matthew7979
      matthew7979 patricia44773

      Posted

      Right now is not the time for sure.  I do realize that but I was not having any cravings until recently.
  • sue08
    sue08 matthew7979

    Posted

    Mathew dont cut your self short beccause you are a bing drinker. What you have done is fantastic GOOD for YOU

    Hang in there you have done very well smile

  • star27805
    star27805 matthew7979

    Posted

    I binge drink and I would find it near impossible to go that long without drinking so good for you I think after 11 months you are doing so well and have created a life without alcohol in it. Hope everything works out for you.
    • matthew7979
      matthew7979 star27805

      Posted

      Thanks Star.  I never have needed alcohol every day but when I drank I loved to party.  I do not want that again but I wish I could get a drunk on every now and then lol.  It makes me that much adorable, in my mind anyway!  Ha!
    • star27805
      star27805 matthew7979

      Posted

      Hi Matthew I know for sure I do not get anywhere close to adorable infact I notice the huge affect alcohol has on me while very drunk and its not attractive at all. I cant keep up proper conversation when I get like that. But now I want to stop the binging altogether. Im finding it really hard to find the motivation to stop I think I used to want to get THAT drunk to stop the anxiety it is however very temporary and some of the worst anxiety of my life has been the day following a binge. Id say the reason you are craving is due to extreme stress.Hope your mums ok and good luck to you.
    • matthew7979
      matthew7979 star27805

      Posted

      Sorry I know I am not adorable when I consume alcohol.  I just try to mask my vunerability and overall anxiety with self deprecating humor.  And yes I am extremely afraid and that is why I want to drink.  And to tell you the truth, since I have quit drinking my panic attacks have ceased.  Just be good to yourself Star and all will fall into place.
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