this "anxiety" is destroying me. please any help

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hey guys so im farely new to forums and i feel like this is my best outlet. To start off with i am a 17 years old and for the majority of my life since i was little i have always had add, adhd, ocd, and small anxiety. But going back to last january i had my first true panic attack It was late that nigth and i remember researching alot about heart attacks and stuff like that. In the middle of it all i was reading the symptoms and my heart started pounding faster and faster, my arm and body went cold, and a sworm of thoughts and worry struck my mind. My brain felt like it was going so fast. I immediately went to parents and went to the ER. I honestly felt like i was  having a heart attack. So that was the first and weirdly enough the only panick attack ive had, but the long lasting affect that it has had on me has been life changing for the worse. Ever since that day i have felt that i lost myself. I dont enjoy things the way i use to and dont see things the way i did before. my perception of life and day to day living is off. My life has been taken over by my subconcious that has been leading up for years and finally reached its breaking point. i read alot about people cant go out or eat and stuff like that but i dont have any of those symptoms. I am just living in my mind and a small bubble. To this day i just cant fully describe what im feeling. Ill do my best to descibe it.. its like my mind is constatnly in this fog and im not getting the full use of my brain. Im not as sharp as i was, my memory is declining by the day. And i had great memory. I feel like im honestly becoming dumb to things if that even makes sense. i go to my parents each day and say "i dont feel right" and they just dont understand, and it annoys me because i cant put anything into words. Even righting this p*sses me off because i miss my old self and everythng. Im sorry if this is all scattered and out of sorts, i just tried to get it all out. I hope any of you take the time to read this and have any advice or help to what my life is coming to. 

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    This is exactly how I'm feeling. I've always suffered anxiety, which doesn't mean always having a panic attack. I'm the same as you, my concentration and memory is crap, which is something I used to pride myself on. Foggy brain, feeling low and not wanting to do anything, I don't socialise as much anymore.

    The only way to beat it is to accept it, it's the hardest thing to do. You've got to live by it, realise that it's all in your head, live your life by it and don't let it stop you. It's about retraining the way you think. I've got into mindful meditation, you can do it on YouTube or download some apps (headspace, Pacifica or mindshift). It sounds silly but it does really help.

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      thank you for the reply. Accepting this feels immpossible, my mind is slowly going away and its scary. Im completely convinced that there is something more wrong with me and that this is not just anxiety..
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      i know exactly how u feel. u feel like your slowly losing yourself but its true accepting it and trying to get on with your life is what helps. but stressing and panicking more about it makes it so much worse rolleyes
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