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its Been years now .. 26
ive been on so many medications over there years they make me feel so bad.
Right now I am on. Mirtazipine 30mg venaflaxine 75mg pregabalin 50mg diazepam 20 mgs. Gabapentin, naproxen, atorvastatin lanzoprazole.....
I'm 40 I feel I have been left ive tried to fight for help I've needed. So very hard. Only now they are giving my CPN back.
my story is long and horrible. I'll keep it brief. At 14 I had a trumor, then was told I'll never have kids and I watched my dear dear Aunt die in front of me... like I saw my gran being taken from her house dead at 5.
I found out the Dad I thought I had known was a gentle giant my one love.. That was stripped from me when I found out he was a monster.
I was in a domestic violence marriage for 16 yrs and I was a heroin addict for 15 years.
Well I've left my husband now, I'm clean 17 months now......
but im tired I'm drained I have nothing in me anymore it's hard to get up. Well I've stop going out if I can avoid it.
i can normally see it coming maybe get ahead of it. I can't it's not possible. It's always there. The weight the betrayal the hurt. I've ran out.
been begging for help for months untill the point I called to say I was in a bad way.
i really feel for anyone who has this cruel desease IT TAKES TAKES......it's like a choker around my neck, a vice crushing my head. No respite now a all no talking myself round. You'll be ok vic but I have nothing left I have to rebuild again and don't think I can
I have all these meds and I don't know one from the other sometimes. Can't function.
how long, when will it go tired drained feel hopeless and helpless to help myself.
any ideas PLEASE
please don't think I haven't fought I have so many times sorry to vent
thank you if you've took time to read xx
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