This poison will be the end of me
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Been on it 4 years. the first year was a heaven sent. Helped my depression so much, made my sleep like an angel.
Since 2 years ago it has turned on me bad, and I am now close to bedridden most of the day. Zombie energy, all sorts of very scary visual disturbances, brain fog. constipation, dry skin, pains all over my body. internal pulsating tremors that torture me all day (those are probably THE worst) Bad shortness of breath. headaches, dizzyness, worsening tinnitus (I had pre-existing tinnitus) ect.
Each other month a new chronic symptom shows up and I am only getting worse and worse in a rapid pace. Tried a very slow taper a couple times, but couldnt pull it of. My sleep became complete crap and all I could do was lay in bed crying and I became a great danger to myself. This hell poison will be the end of me I really feel :´(
Its a damned if I do/damned if I don't situation: I can't taper of without highly probably killing myself and the longer I stay on it the closer I get to putting an end to it all as well, cause I have only a tini tiny bit of life quality left. I am only 35 but I feel like I am 90. Actually I know of 90 year olds with more mobility then me. And all I can do is watch my whole life rapidly slip away from me without being able to do anything about it.
I don't know who then hell approved this drug for human use, but I curse that person. F*** this s***!!! I will loose my life over this!! :´(
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yaritza83377 sandradane
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Hello.
I was on mirtazapine for 3 years and 2 months. Almost a month taking the full dose which was 15 mg and then the rest tapering till i came off from this absolute poison that should NOT be prescribe to anyone, this past Jan 11 ( been 5 moths off now) the thing is, i am absolutely soooooooooo freaking confuse that i don't even know what else to think any more and i don't think there's anyone who could clarify my doubts. I don't have a clue if what i've been going though like maybe 2 moths now is withdrawals or i'm actually going to die from some thing ( i have health anxiety and i constantly think i'm going to get a fatal illness and die from it) yup that's life for me every day, my doctor is tired of me but back to what i was saying...
I don't know if what i'm experiencing is that i'm finally getting withdrawals from coming off of this poison ( even though it was on a low does 0.7 mg) or what because most if not everything im feeling i use to feel it while tapering, but it has changed? like is more worse that when i was tapering. I have dizziness( like if i had vertigo or something and im balancing and someone is pulling me then pushing me kind of feeling?) shortness of breath( like i cant take a full breath to satisfy my lungs? i feel i cant take a proper breath ? or breathing like if i was runing?) which i had back when i was tapering for almost a year i had that but now is worse, im coughing a lost, feel my chest tight and my back hurts and my right side as well, i get fatigue, sometimes really bad and i also sometimes feel like passing out. My bones hurts, sometime a lot, my body on the inside trembles ( from time to time, specially at night when im in bed) and its soo weird. Bad eye pain and weird changes on my vision. Last night i got the strangest and super bad head/ eye pain ive ever had and it scared the crap out of me. I never o not that i cant remember since sooo much has happened, but while tapering off i dont think i had something like that, it felt soooo painfully and like if someone was crushing my head, super weird and ive been feeling soo many weird things and i just dont know if it is withdrawals or wha the hell?!?
All i know and thats a mega fact is that ever since i got prescribed this hell of a pill, my life has changed for the worse and theres no way i cant bring my happy days back. Im not normal anymore, the little i had went away when they prescribed this pill to me. Im constantly worried, my health anxiety is sooo bad im suffering, cant think straight and its driving me crazy, my doctor is like " but what more studies am i going to do t you you are fine!" but i dont think i am and its a constant worry, i was not like that before, it all started when i got into this pill! i feel for you, soooo much happened to me while tapering and maybe now off, its truly a nightmare and it seems there's no way to fix this crap.
Could you explain to me what exactly you feel with the shortness of breath, like how it affects? take care ♥