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I am a 54 year old female who underwent a thoracic, abdominal aneurysm repair surgery 8 months ago. The aneurysm was 5.5 to 5.6 centimetres and essentially the aorta was repaired from my heart to my kidneys. I would like to discuss my recovery. I am still not up to my usual level of energy in that I still have to rest if I have not taken it easy. During the surgery the left side of my ribs were clamped open and I find myself still favouring that side of my body. eg: protecting my ribs with my hands if I am in a crowded area. But, what has really stumped me is a feeling of panic and anxiety. I had imagined that after the aneurysm was repaired that I would feel relieved. I AM most grateful but sometimes I feel dissociated from my body and I feel depressed a lot of the time...which was not a usual occurence before the surgery. It feels as if for the 18 years that I knew about the aneurysm I lived in a mild state of anxiety as to whether or not it would rupture or if and when I would have major surgery. Now, that it's repaired I feel like I have to learn to live in a different way....kind of like when I was a child and went skating all afternoon and then took off my skates. It felt strange to walk in boots. I know it's a silly analogy but it feels like I have to learn to walk again. Is there anyone else that has felt this panic or does anyone have symptoms of PTSD following their surgery?
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