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Why do I do this to myself. Iv been out had a good evening , laughed ?lived in the moment.
yet I come home and think of that frightening word, like I persecute myself. why .
The Sertraline has lifted the depression still a bit nervy. But why keep bringing back the terrible thought. Like testing myself.
Mental Health is s**t.
Sorry for this negitive.
Positives and hope please
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SeanMo chris80549
Posted
I've made it a habit to take a hot bath or shower to ease my body and meditate before bed. Just feed yourself good thoughts and positive vibes. That way when its time to rest my body being relaxed helps me fall asleep. I still have my moments where i wake up anxious in the middle of the night but its been less frequent
Hope things get better for you
chris80549 SeanMo
Posted
to SeanMo.
Thank you for your reply.
Every positive reply helps us all on this site.
dodo81786 chris80549
Posted
hi chris , i know exactly how you feel because i have the same thing , thoughts just come to my mind and i dont know why im testing my self too
im on week 7 of 100 in total of 2 months on sertraline all together from 50 to 100 mg .
what dose are you on and for how long ?
chris80549 dodo81786
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hi . do do.
Thank you for your reply.
Like you I started on 50mg for 8 weeks now been on 100mg about 8 weeks I think. Lost count a bit.
The side effects are mostly gone, but when word comes I shake and it goes to my head and bowls .
Its like I punish myself for enjoying myself.
Im sure its a throw back from years ago, probably low self esteem trying to prove ourselves and when it goes wrong we cant cope.
I think we have to try and accept we can all make mistakes and too move on and not blame ourselves.
Worrying too much causes stress guilt depression then with me the word came.
Then when people blame you for things you havent done you believe it and worry then starting the circle again.
Im sure Sertraline will help us break the cycle
I try and plan to do something every day if only a walk.
Sorry to go on and on.
Hope it helps you to know your not alone.
Keep fighting on.
Love and Peace of Mind to everyone
dodo81786 chris80549
Posted
do you see therapist ?
i am looking for one but its taking forever .
i get the good calm moments but i dont know why my head recalls the other feeling .
chris80549 dodo81786
Posted
To. dodo
No not seen Therapist.
Years ago had Counselling , they want you talk about past problems
I want to forget it not bring it all up, so I refused the Dr offer this time, also he said there is a long waiting list.
I dont know if it would help you or not.
Iv tried alternative therapies. crystal healing. hands on healing. acu punture.
meditation . tailsmen. stones by pillow.
nothing worked.
I did try CBD OIL 4% before Sert.
Be careful of buying from internet I went to a shop. expensive £27 small bottle, so not really viable. And there is no medical testing yet for reacting with other meds.
it did stop shaking but did not lift mood or depression.
I stopped it when I started Sertraline because I felt I wanted to give Sert a good chance.
The best so far has been Sertraline.
Although Im not 100% yet.
I will get there. and so will you.
Love & Peace to you all on this site
dodo81786 chris80549
Posted
how are you doing ? im starting week 8 on 100 .
i still feel anxious about my anixety as if im testing myself when i feel better so i go back to feel the same . but i can say in general i can cope but like 50% able .
sue74917 chris80549
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Hi Chris. The fact that you had a good evening out shows that you are on your way to recovering. The keep testing is a common thing that so many of us do, we. change are thought process from when will I get better to will I stay better. As the meds kick in more and our minds erase the memory of the nightmare we have been through we will trust the medication more and accept we are better and just get on with life. There is a thing called waves and windows when withdrawing but I like to believe that we also get waves and windows when we are finding our correct dose, windows of feeling normal and waves of negative thinking, as with everything sertraline has brought to us this phase will also pass. You are doing well keep going and do not worry about testing yourself it is normal, if you had a physical injury you would test it to see if it is better so this is just the same
chris80549 sue74917
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Hi Sue.
Thank you for your nice reply. I will continue with my 100mg Sert.
Iv not heard of windows and waves.
I dont want to keep pestering the Dr but I wondered if I should go higher or am I impatient to be 100%.
Side effects have mostly gone and I know Im not so low in mood.
Now about 12 weeks on 200mg.
sue74917 chris80549
Posted
Chris I am a bit confused, my you thats not hard for me, how long have you been on what dose?
chris80549 sue74917
Posted
hi Sue
will check my calender and get back.
thank you for caring about me.
chris80549 sue74917
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to Sue.
This is my Sertraline dates.
Started 50mg 2nd Sept 2018
Changed to 100mg 23rd Oct 18
makes50mg for 7 weeks
and 100mg to this week for 11 weeks
TOTAL 18 WEEKS
50mg dont think helped much.
100mg only started to help after about 9 weeks.
IN the beginning side effects bad. most gone now.
If I get bit stressed now head ache
still bit nervy and loose bowls.
Bad word sometimes getting less.
Any advice would be appreciated
should I keep going on 100mg or go back to Dr.
Thank you.
sue74917 chris80549
Posted
ok got it. I would wait 1 more week on 100, making that 12 weeks in total on that dose, if you still think there is not much improvement then have a chat to your Dr about increasing dose but do it little and slow, maybe by 25, stay on that for 4 weeks then go up if you need by another 25, this way if you find it too much for you it is easier to drop back down, the meds are helping as you have been having ok times, it is just a case of figuring out if it is time or increase that you need
chris80549 sue74917
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hi Sue.
Thank you for your advice appreciated. will take your advice.
Nementh chris80549
Posted
Because we feel bad for feeling bad and think that we project our own emotions onto others.
Can I ask what it is you think and feel when you get home?
I'm sorry I can't give you a truly "positive" post on this one, but I think understanding the thought process may be more important. My sincere apologies if I come across abrupt.