thoughts all over the place
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Hi all I only seem to come on here when I am having difficulty but I suppose thats what this is all about.I don't think I am able to help anyone else yet until I sort myself out. I have managed to complete my final week at work under the phased return plan, back to full time next week. Not sure if I am ready but just go through the motions. It's when I get home that everything starts going wrong. This week on and off I have still been having suicidal thougths they just won't go away I don't know how to stop them, I try and keep busy, still exercising but they keep coming back. I even found myself on the internet looking up different ways to commit suicide, just did it without thinking. I've got tramadol and dimazipane in the cupboard I'm sure these and alcohol will work. I know or like to think I do not really want to do this but it just won't go away. I just feel so pathetic, useless, I hate myself having these thoughts and just want to hurt myself. I keep seeing myself doing these things I just hope I don't do them for real.
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anne2953 tina89895
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Have you been to see your doctor as tablets can so help with this, as its down to a case of a chemical imbalance in your brain that makes you feel like this, I promise I know, so get to the GP ask for help it may take a few weeks for the meds to take effect but then you will feel normal again, and happy and able to go on... promise me you will go to see your GP
Stay strong
Anne
tina89895 anne2953
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anne2953 tina89895
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Be strong, and see the doctor again and tell him straight how you feel, maybe get your name down for CBT training.
Anne x
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anne2953 tina89895
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yes the dreams are crap but they do go, it was the dreams that put me off, but I persevered and now am so glad, its was a tough journey, and I wouldnt have understood it if I hadnt experienced it, my life is back to normal now, and so happy again. I could'nt believe how I was feeling when I first got this. as had never had it before, but will support anyone that has it now as I only got through this knowing I wasnt the only one.
So take care and keep going to the GP for help, and look into doing the CBT training it was really helpful to me.
Take care
Anne x
tina89895 anne2953
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anne2953 tina89895
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take care and keep in touch
Anne x
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David_21660 tina89895
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Take Care, David
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Mobyd tina89895
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i found that it helps me see things straight again.
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