Thrown into Menopause!

Hi, weeks ago I really did not think I could cope anymore, and truly I have been through so much over the years, but I ran out of coping anymore! I am 50 this year, I had a hysterectomy at 28, and was not allowed on hrt, over the years whilst trying to bring my 3 children up and work, I was in and out of hospital with suspected strokes! I spent years working, not being able to work, became a single mum, got in debt! Anyway I have struggled with health on and off, but the last 2 years have been hell! Here are just a few of my symptoms! Serious migraines, constant spaced out dizzyness, loss of speech, disgusting taste in mouth, exhaustion beyond belief, bad eye sight, , numb hands and feet, pain in joints to where it makes me cry, severe and I mean severe lower back pain every single day! Sobbing every day! I have had tests galore, I do have a fantastic doctor, they believe this is mainly hormones, even though after my hysterectomy I contracted mrsa, which they diagnosed me with m.e and fybromalgia, every kind on medication has made me unwell, even certain vitamins to not agree with me, they are now trying to get me on a low dose of amyltriptalin 10mg, but I am just frightened to take them as cannot bear any more side affects to my very fragile body as it is, weight gain as well and I hardly eat!! I feel as though I am in the darkest place, it truly helps to read other ladies are going through stuff, but I can honestly say I feel so alone, even though I do have wonderful children .. that want to help, but when everyday I am in so much pain, and honestly feel at deaths door, it's so hard to want to fight anymore... xxx

Also suffering multiple symptoms daily since my hysterectomy 4 and a half years ago (in the extreme the last 2 years) and constantly trying out new vitamins herbs foods rituals holtistic medical the works! to try and help ease up on some of them and try to function to some degree of normality with the busy demands of life. I use the 'moments' or few hours of normality to try hard to stay positive before the 'waves' of horribleness come about (I'm yet to experience a whole day of feeling 'normal' . It really is so hard to deal with, and so much worse for us all as our bodies obviously need loads of rest but we're not in a position to give it that. I really beleive that the medical profession needs to some how work out how to assess and treat the fluctuating hormones needs of each individual woman. Our bodies are crying out for help but there seems no clear cut help for us as ive found most things work for a while but at some point we end up in the same boat. Wish you strength through all of this...there are ladies on here that have confirmed it does get better!

Ps i didn't mean to put that random smiley face..I've got blurred vision at the mo (another regular symptom)