Tired of all this anxiety and depression.
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Because of some medical tests and symptoms I'm constantly worried I have cancer. IF I have cancer I will do nothing about it as the treatments are horrendous and I refuse to go through with them even though people will want me to. I'm sick of worrying about my health all the time and being depressed and not being able to get my mind off of it. I'm in the process of changing anti depressants and it seems to be going nowhere. I wish I was dead as I cannot live like this. I need some semblance of hope or some way to feel better otherwise I may just have end it. Maybe if I have cancer it'll be a blessing becuase that' what will kill me shortly. That anxiety is in a class by itself. I want to try to be able to focus on others I know and less on myself but I've become so wrapped up in this crap I can't stand any more of it. There seems no way out.
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alfiy309 jim48507
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mrs.wife24531 jim48507
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archemedes jim48507
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I find it helpful to realise that these conditions are usually caused by unusual chemical or neuron activity within our brains - if you like something similar to a car engine misfiring, which can be corrected if we seek the right help for it.
Whatever you do, please do not lose heart - just get help.
SkyeBeth jim48507
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victoria44680 jim48507
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I'm sorry to hear how you're feeling...
I struggle with Anxiety myself, so as someone has already mentioned, that in itself is a challenge and has the days where you know there is no up...!
I don't know about you, but sometimes the physical pains/illness (however you want to classify it) seem easier to deal with. They are what they are and you can't do anything about them. At least with physical, you can walk around without this dark cloud over your mind, feeling as though it's holding you back from every move you make...
You seem to be accepting the decision that you've made in regards to your cancer treatment, should this be the case, does that give you any comfort...? Knowing that you've already made the decision...?
I feel the same way as yourself, that anxiety and/or depression can consume you, and you do feel as though you're wrapped up in yourself, when really that's very far from the person you actually are...
Scruffy61 jim48507
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your message touched me like no other I am so sorry you are going through
this ,I know how difficult it is to get the help you need I wish there was a magic wand that we can all use to cure us of this nightmare but there isn't
I know that being in this forum helps so keep talking and know that we are all listening
Lynn