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nick34171
nick34171

Todays one of those days where I could just pick up a knife and put it into someone's face over and over. That's stupid though. I don't need a knife. Fists work fine. This room is a mess. I am a mess. Unbrushed hair, no clean clothes, and now have to go hospital tomorrow instead of today. I feel heavy with nothingness. And I've read an article in a supermarket magazine about forgiveness. I suppose its got valid points, but I'm not quite sure about it, moving on with clean slate leave baggage behind. I mean who actually wants to keep baggage? I know I don't and if it was that was I would have done it already right? Or is my mind just used to being an absolute nightmare? And if I'm not an angry psycho who am I? Who is or will be left if it is possible to leave it at the door or control it in some way. Was that easy* sorry damn phone.

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  • lorraine52317
    lorraine52317 nick34171

    Posted

    Hey nick

    it sounds like you are having a really difficult time right now. Have you any idea why you feel so angry? Are you on any new medication? Or has something or someone upset you?

    Anger is an awful emotion and leaves you feeling ' not in control'

    If you feel able to, can you ytryand explain why you ate feeling so bad.

    god bless ♥

    • nick34171
      nick34171 lorraine52317

      Posted

      Hi Lorraine, hope you are doing well. I don't belong here. I'm lost. I think I'm going to give up trying to fit in, if I find a place so be it, if not then so be it. I'm done trying. I'm going to go into silent running again. There's no confusion when you mostly just talk to yourself lol. Actually I don't know about that. Anyway I'm going to say bye until I got something positive to post. Hope you are ok, thank you for your kindness. Stay strong. Nick.
    • lorraine52317
      lorraine52317 nick34171

      Posted

      Nick please never be done trying! And you most certainly do belong! I and others here want to see all your posts even if there negative, don't forget it's hard to say something positive when you feel so unwell..If we only had positive messages and symptoms, we wouldn't be able to help each other ♥

      nick I prayed to god for death. I am so pleased he ignored me as 7 months on, I am once again laughing and appreciating my family. I couldn't have managed without the support I got here.

      So don't hold back nick. Tell us how it is for you. You can be as negative as you like and I/ we wwon't take it personally. Really want to try and help! God bless xx

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