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To make this short is hard, because of all that has happened in my short life of 20 and half years, but I will try my best to make this short. In all my worries this topic is on my unhealthy habit of consuming alcohol regularly towards evening. On average a half a bottle. Also, my tolerance is high since I am only 20 year old 130 Ib female and have been drinking only for about 2 years, but not like this untill recent.
Before you judge I need to make clear that I have suffered from ocd and addictive behaviors since I was 13. There's a lot of anxiety and sadness I have from certain events or regrets. I was hospitalized when I was 13 for anorexia and than again for bulimia when I was 18 but I had the choice to leave so I left prematurely. As a replacement I went through many drugs weed,alcohol, cocain, extocy, meth,psycodelics, and tried prescription pills.
I got addicted to alcohol and its knumbing affect when I was18 but not fully since I didn't drink everyday. I was decieved into thinking meth was "molly" and got almost extremely addicted but was saved from fortunate circumstances and a great boyfriend. It took me about 4 months to overcome those affects and alcohol was something that helped me during those times compared to anything else. I had the craziest anxiety and paranoia I could bearly get anything done and of course I need to continue school and work or else I would have nothing.Now that I am way less anxious and in normal chemistry or at least not extremely out of wack im trying to kick alcohol out of my regular day.
I tried one day and had terrible insomnia and anxiety. How can this change? Is there any coping techniques or suggestions? I really don't want this addiction on top of all I've overcome? I want to enjoy being young for once and focus on my dreams!
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