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Its 3.20pm, been awake since 6.30am, and have not got up. dwelling on my health all day, I can't get it out of my head. It's driving me crazy.
I have totally lost all interest in everything.
The morbid thoughts are the worst. My mind keeps saying 50 at the most, thats only 8 more years.
I don't want to die, I want to live.
Still have no appointment to see a chest specialist. It's nearly 12 weeks since being diagnosed. Not that he can do anything. ?
I dont know how to cope anymore with this. I had a life in March and now it's gone.
I don't watch TV anymore, I no longer do my website, I shut it down, I spent years making it. I used to be on top of everything I did. I'm getting forgetful, I havent spoken to friends in months, I ignore phone calls and skype calls. All I do is google copd every moment of being awake.
I just do not see how I can get to a good age with 52% fev1
sorry if I have repeated myself.
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