Totally lost all interest in everything
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Its 3.20pm, been awake since 6.30am, and have not got up. dwelling on my health all day, I can't get it out of my head. It's driving me crazy.
I have totally lost all interest in everything.
The morbid thoughts are the worst. My mind keeps saying 50 at the most, thats only 8 more years.
I don't want to die, I want to live.
Still have no appointment to see a chest specialist. It's nearly 12 weeks since being diagnosed. Not that he can do anything. ?
I dont know how to cope anymore with this. I had a life in March and now it's gone.
I don't watch TV anymore, I no longer do my website, I shut it down, I spent years making it. I used to be on top of everything I did. I'm getting forgetful, I havent spoken to friends in months, I ignore phone calls and skype calls. All I do is google copd every moment of being awake.
I just do not see how I can get to a good age with 52% fev1
sorry if I have repeated myself.
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Paul-ex-smoker
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My problem is I have spent three months googling, all my Dr's surgery did was give me a leaflet called copd and nothing else. I asked for the xray, I have not been given any info at all. All I know is I am 1% off moderate. And 26% off severe.
Which made me think not much time. This is how I came up with the calculation of not being here long.
i then read the following
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When John did it back in 2002, his FEV1 was 0.86 and his expected FEV1 at the age of 58 and a height of 5 feet 8 inches was 3.16. So 0.86 over 3.16 times 100 equals 27%. “27%? He exclaimed, \"27% of normal!”. The consultant was hesitant and then said “you have Severe Emphysema” pointing at the X-rays and then added “don’t worry, it’s not life threatening”. “Oh great” John said “Not now maybe, but how about later?” The consultant shrugged his shoulders “Nobody knows. You might be hit by a bus for all I know.” Why do people always come up with that? thought John - and then he exclaimed \"I’m now paranoid about buses!\"
Since 2002 John's FEV1 declined to 0.5 by 2007, which is a larger drop than should be expected over 5 years. However, in 2002 it was probably on the verge of dropping anyway. Average annual decline is around 0.03 if you do not smoke, twice that if you do.[/b:a1802f8666]
Paul-ex-smoker
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Paul
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John had 0.86L and lived for a further 5 years after that.
I agree about the drs .... they do tend to just diagnose and then shove you out the door quick with a booklet ( I never even got a booklet) .... they should understand that people are going to worry and address that side of things better.
Remember ... most people with copd live into the 70s ... and often longer. Thats a fact.
Paul-ex-smoker
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thanks for your reply. I'm basicaly emotionaly drained.
Thing is that guy John had 0.86L and lived for 5 years.
I have say 2.4 L
if I lost 0.86 over the same 5 years, I would need 1.72 over 10 years
God I hope I am wrong.
I'm completely wrecked with worry
Paul
Tessa
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I agree when you are first diagnosed it is pretty scary.
Using the net for information is very useful, but you have to be realistic and bear in mind the one important thing. The net info is general, but everyone is different.
Your doctor is correct. If you have mild COPD now and you look after yourself, by not smoking, gentle exercise is important, good food and getting on top of any infections early, there is no reason why you should not live into your 70s
I actually know how you are feeling as I have been there myself over a different matter. I think it is paramount that you ask your GP as soon as possible be honest and tell him how you are feeling and ask him to refer you to a specialist, where you can get all the answers to your questions.
The one thing that you need at the moment is re assurance and the best person to get that from is a chest consultant.
In 2005 my FEV1 was 0.35 For years I cannot move the peak flow meter beyond 90
It is important that you spend some parts of the day trying to get your mind off of that FEV1. Can you not re open your website and decide to spend 15 minutes a day to start with on it. Or 15 minutes walking which will be helping your condition.
Let me know how you get on
Tessa
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