I have been on ativan, then clonazepam and now valium for 14 years. I have never stopped. I ran low this past month. I am prescribed 20 mg per day. Some days I take more. The last two weeks I ran out and could not get a refill until yesterday. I was hoping I could just stop, go through a little discomfort and I would be done. The past two weeks were so horrible I picked up my new script yesterday. I can't do it. Reading all these posts gave me anxiety. I am 64 years old and can't afford to spend years sick with the debilitating withdrawals so many describe. I can not stand the thought feeling panic and excruciating anxiety for months or years. I am envious of your strength and wish you all the best. I don't like being an addict, but am too weak to feel inescapable anxiety. I guess I felt the urge to tell you in my pea brain I can't fathom going through the painful withdrawals so many have/are. The lucky ones that have made are truly fortunate. Thanks for listening.