Trying to beat alcoholism

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I started a diet on Monday, after putting on 2 stone after drinking between half and a full bottle of vodka a day for the past 3-4 months. I have tonight (after 3 days) already relapsed. Tonight I drunk about a quarter to a half bottle of gin, and am already not feeling good. My partner knows I drunk one 35ml shot of vodka when in actual fact I'd drunk a lot more and he.v is now concerned about my welfare given the side (normal) effects (slurred speech, not making sense) but he alwAys puts it down to one drink on an empty stomach.  Up until today I was so proud of myself for going sober for the past couple of days but today has been a weak day.

i always play off my drunk ness as dieting/lack of food, as in the summer it was exactly the same (I drank while out walking the dogs, and the difference in me was noted when I arrived home).

I need ringing the strength to continue my sobriety as I have easily managed the last couple of days. I put it down to boredom most of the time. Amy encouragement would be gratefully received, although I'm not interest in joining A a, I want to beat this on my own without people having to know. 

im im not looking for critidm or bad feeling. Thanks in advance. 

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    Hi Justme 123. I thought yesterday I would be able to keep of the Booze all day as I had a bad stomach but as the day went on into late afternoon and early evening my stomach started to feel better so I had a sip of vodka and wasn't to bad, so had another then another sip which went on till. 3am, so I'm afraid I'm as yet not one who can give any advice but as like you I wouldn't go to Aa.
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    That sounds familiar Gillian! Im sick of feeling ashamed of myself and sick of feeling rough all the time. Now I have a headache so hopefully tomorrow I'll have the willpower to steer clear.
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    Hi Justme- you have nothing to be ashamed of-many people battle with alcohol-it is not easy to quit - you said it yourself about being bored- you may need to find something to fill your day to stop thinking about drinking- there ars many people who quit drink without going to AA-though it does seem to help many people, alot of people do not need AA to quit (myself included-i went to many AA meetings-never got it-i found it really depressing if i am being honest) there are many forms of help and support outside of AA-we can all benifit from a bit of help when battling this problem- i found going to an addiction counselor worked for me- i learned to deal with alot of underlying issues relating to my drinking- i am sober since 2005-it was not easy at first, but it has made such a difference to my life since i quit-i think the most important thing is that you really want to quit-then find what works for you in helping you to stay off the drink- stoppping is the easy part-it is staying of it that is the hardest part- do not be hard on yourself if you dont succeed at first- many of us take many attempts to stop for any length of time-this is not an excuse to keep drinking-but it does happen-it is how you react to failing that is the important part-you gotta keep trying-you can do beat this-stay strong and keep reaching out for support it is important-best of luck-
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    Not long found this site think this is my first post, this year I will beat this, I thought I'd got control over my drinking but I then smoked weed for 3 years I then decided to quit that and now the acholic side of me is returning, try to go all day dry and just buy yourself 4 cans forbade night, I know we shouldn't be drinking at all but just do it gradual it's hard enough as it is, I'm worried myself as my stomach feels fat inside and I'm a very thin person so this stops soon, are we allowed to put numbers on here because I'd be happy to chat/share with anyone on this
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    As a drinker you have a massive imbalance of vitamins and proteins so you need to fix that first so that you desire alcohol less. These tend to help with alcoholics:

    - glutamine

    - krill oil

    - sesamine oil

    - inositol

    - multivitamin

    - protein

    Also join a gym and do heavy cardio.

    Do some self imaging for motivation by imagining how you wish to be and what wonderful things you could be doing like that. It builds up your motivation.

    Prayer and meditation also helps to focus your inner strength.

    Remember that most of your problem is mental and that physical stuff like supplements can help you only as much as your will power is set to achieve.

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    Thanks for all of your comments. When I woke this morning I realised that I couldn't remember a good two hours from last night prior to going to bed. I couldn't remember what I'd done or the conversations I'd had with my partner despite feeling ok (although drunk) at the time. Partner is getting worried about me as he doesn't know it's due to alcohol. Today I haven't touched a drop and don't intend to, besides I am incapable of having just one drink. Just got to hope I can be stronger the next time the cravings hit.
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    Hello Justme,

    It is such a difficult situation.  I hope you find the strenght to stop drinking but if your cravings are too strong I would suggest considering medical  (ie chemical help).

    There may be real hope as the baclofen double blind  study, called Bacloville, is due for publication early this year.  Baclofen simply stops any craving for alcohol. It worked for me.  The rumour is it worked for more than 60% of patient whom remain abstinent, or went back to a normal consumption, for at least a year.  Until the study is published however, there will be no undisputable evidence of efficiency, just 50 000 French people taking it.

    I sought medical help (although nobody else needed to know) and got the baclofen treatment.  When indifference to alcohol happened, I just could not believe it : suddenly the alcohol toughts were simply not there any more.  That was freedom without any struggle. That has been a year now and my consumption (purely social) is at an average of 0.8 unit a day, with no binging.  Alcohol is simply not an issue anymore.

    I wish you a wonderful 2015 and hope it will be alcohol-free.

    Keep strong.

    Vanessa

     

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      Thanks sophie02444 it's always good to hear other people stories. I have remained sober for another day despite my partner drinking last night, I still declined. I'm lucky I've had no withdrawal symptoms given the amounts I have been drinking and feel much better in myself purely because I'm not hungover all the time or living under a cloud of guilt. Granted it's only been two days but it proves to myself I can be strong and abstain.

      I hope one day I can go back to socially drinking or only having a couple without the need to continue until I pass out!

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    Hello,

    Just wished to send my congratulations.  You obviously have a strong will to stop as it is so difficult not to drink when surrounded by it and feel "socially authorised" to it. Only people who have faced this problem with honesty knows how frequent and strong the desire to drink comes and how much it increases after the first drink. At the begining it is a constant bother but it does become easier with time.  So every drink refused is a true victory and something to be proud of.

    So well done again and good luck.

    Sophie

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    Hi there

    My situation seems almost identical to yours..drinking half to one bottle vodka a day, for last 3-4 months, also put on 2 stone, also secret from my partner. Seemed to kick off same time I gave up smoking...been to a few aa meetings, don't feel they're for me. Which is why looking on these forums. First time been on, not too sure how they work, but would you be interested in swooping emails, maybe we could do this together? Today my first day stopping, have had enough but do feel would be nice to have someone in same situ to talk to, as no-one else knows?

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    Oh dear getting to grips with this forum just put long post on and it got lost somewhere! It was to say my aim here is to find a buddy of sorts, whether on public posts or not, with similar goals. Like I say justme123 we got lots of parallel situations - my goals are 1) cut out the vodka completely, it's been absolutely lethal for me (drinking from waking up so pretty much hammered all the time) in the way is so much easier than other things to drink secretly 2) lose the 2 stone in 2 months 3) start swimming again 4) hopefully get back to being able to have some beers on weekends. But doing thus without anyone knowing - I may be delusional, time will tell, but I feel is doable. Is what my lifestyle was before, albeit with the 20-30 cigs per day. Am loathe to tell partner, sure I can do it without him finding out the extent of it all, feel so embarrassed about the lying. Already today feeling fog lifting.

    This forum seems really nice, some great posts, for me reassuring not to have the extreme black and white views, I'm not convinced by aa approach. Tried a few meetings, they're just not for me.

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    HI Justme. No AA sounds familiar and perhaps you can cope on your right. I assume that you are in the middle of re evaluating your life right now and which direction you want to go. It is never easy stopping suddenly and staying sober and you need encouragement and treats in my opinion. It depends on how much lower you sink this year or perhaps say "stop" enough is enough and I can do it!! I wish you best of luck. Do not worry about people judging you on this notice or blogging board since all you well get is good advice from genuine people who want to help.
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