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I feel so helpless and scared. I will start this off with the very beginning.. when I was younger, around 16, I would get the big bouts of nausea at night time. This had carried on until 18, and I had always joked and said I was a two year long pregnant woman with night nausea.. you know, to make light of the situation. But it progressively had been getting worse since that very first night at 16. I remember that night so clearly, and I have god awful memory.
Anyways (I am rambling), about.. hm.. 5 months ago; it stopped just being night nausea. It transformed into an ugly beast that I live with every day. I will give some backstory that could help give an idea of what it is. Late last year, I had been in a high stress situation and lost 20+ pounds in a month. I went down to 90 pounds, as a 5'4 girl. Now, I can no longer eat more than one meal. If I eat more than one meal of pasta or fries (low grease, try to keep everything bland), my stomach will send me into a crippled fetal position. I can no longer work at my job, had to quit due to not being able to stand for an hour without feeling insanely nauseous and light headed. I am not a vomitter though, and that is what puzzles me to no end. I don't vomit. The past month, it had progressed into a wave of nausea when I wake up, and it dies down a little when I eat, but after that digests, my stomach is in a frenzy. It feels like it's in some sort of overdrive. I can't eat anything acidic, or I will vomit acid in my mouth. It is very tiny amounts that come up every 5 minutes, just about, BUT I never full on vomit. Since it has been getting progressively worse, I did vomit for the first time in years the other day, and it was so much that I ended up passing out from the strain and exhaustion. I woke up and felt really good, like it had never happened. Ever since, every day I feel like I will vomit. It gets so bad, but nothing ever comes up. Just acid. It wakes me up every other hour of the night, and I have to sip water and pray that it dies down long enough to sleep.
With that being said, I can't even sleep fully due to it. No sleep has always worsened my nausea... but now the nausea is WAKING ME UP! I'm so lost. I can't keep a job due to this (I quit the day I ended up in my workplace's bathroom floor, unable to move from the pain and almost vomitting on myself). I don't know how I will ever be able to live a normal life. What in the world could be causing this at such a young age? I've cut out so many foods and drinks that could cause it, but I swear it is only getting worse. This constant severe nausea, fatigue, and occasional abdominal pain is wearing me down to my bones. I take Zofran, Promethazine, and OTC acid reducers daily, but nothing truly helps. I always end up having severe panic attacks, and that causes the nausea to worsen to a point where I am violently trembling and having hot flashes.
I did go to the Emergency Room recently, during one of my episodes, thinking I had appendicitis, but they did a CAT scan and didn't find anything abnormal, and sent me on my way with nausea medication... which did not work. I do not have any insurance, and will not be able to see a specialist any time soon. I am truly lost and terrified for my future. I do not know how I will support my soon-to-be husband and my family. I do not know how I will get a job and keep it. I do not know how I will support even myself.
Does anyone know what this could possibly be? Any advice on how to try to start living and functioning a little more proper with this weighing me down? Can I even come up out of the dirt from this?
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