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Update from my last post

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jason1602
jason1602

Just to let you all know that absolutley nothing has happened. Emailed and called various help lines and websites trying to get help and not a single reply. Guess it's time to admit that things won't get better, just exsist in this walking dead state where people think I'm ok until it's time to meet the maker 

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  • jim48507
    jim48507 jason1602

    Posted

    I feel like I'm just waiting for tne end.  It doesn't seem like I'll ever feel better.  the only thing left is either ect or some sort of cortal electric stimulation therapy.
    • patricia44773
      patricia44773 jim48507

      Posted

      Do you really want to go through ECT??  Then you must be truly desperate and I am so sorry.  Every day I regret the loss of memory that ECT caused me....it wiped out all the lovely parts of my life...my childhood...all my early life.  It left me totally confused and frightened.  But I had no choice...in the days when I had it I was not consulted on the choice of treatment....it was just done.  I cannot tell you how the memories of those treatments haunt me, the fear of not knowing where I lived so that the ambulance men could take me home....it was a nightmare added to the nightmare I was already going through.

      I am so angry about the loss of memory of the good times.

      Sorry, I shouldn't have said all that....perhaps present day treatment of that kind is better than it was when I had it 40 years ago...in fact it has to be or they wouldn't be using it.  The whole procedure was horrendous.  And, as I said, the effect on my memory....even to this day is catastrophic.

      But...I guess it must have worked because I am still here 40 years later and living a normal (almost) life.  I have brought up two children and had a successful career and marriage (with a very understanding husband).  So go for it if you have to as a last resort.

      My heart aches for you, you sound to be at the end of your tether, I am so sorry.

      Do what you have to do.....

      Best wishes,

      Pat.

    • jim48507
      jim48507 patricia44773

      Posted

      If that's the case then there's no other solution but for me to drop dead.
    • patricia44773
      patricia44773 jim48507

      Posted

      I am sorry, please disregard my reply.  Things will have changed and improved so much since I had my experience.  I didn't mean to take away any hope that you had.  I am terribly sorry and I feel terrible.

      Pat

  • Mick48
    Mick48 jason1602

    Posted

    My advise to Diabetes passions to see cunselor and to hea the problem I find aut the biggest problem with diabetes is psychologically I'm 35 years Diabetic type 2 only 2 years on insulin but I'm seeing cunselor 

    I like to hear from you all is nice we talking but maybe we cannot halp Michelle we most of us in the same boat 

  • Mick48
    Mick48 jason1602

    Posted

    Not most of the posts are on to comit sinusize to kil himself I wos thinking the same but I have children and greand cilldren so I don't think differently I like to stay in life much I can
    • jason1602
      jason1602 Mick48

      Posted

      Not looking to commit suicide, but just given up hope on ever feeling better and wanting to/ or enjoying life again. Have been trying to get help from GP for 3 yrs, they don't want to know. Tried to change GP surgery but can't. Have emailed/ phoned local surport group's, never got a reply. Which ever way I turn to try and get help the door is slammed shut. I have known for 3 yers that I need professional help and I know that I am going downhill all the time.

      As the song says " you don't need an army to fight a losing battle "

    • oldboy
      oldboy jason1602

      Posted

      If your GPs and local support groups "dont want know" there must be some reason - as they are there to help you.   Think about what that might be.  Are you exaggerating?   Are you not cooperating with them?           
    • jason1602
      jason1602 oldboy

      Posted

      Diagnosed with sever depression by a doctor, when I tried to see them again got told that another doctor would call me. Got call off doc and given prescription over the phone for 4 weeks worth of ciltrapram 10mg for 2 weeks then up to 20mg for the next 2. Phone call lasted no more than 45 seconds. Had headaches most days since. Tried to contact to find out if this was normal, got told a doc would call me back, missed the call, so tried again. Missed the next call as well. Doc left message along the lines of if you can answer they won't bother. Trouble is I still work and can't have mobile phone with me ( OK for 10-15 mins) but not hours waiting for call. Since this have found out via the forum these ta blets take a month before you will notice any difference.

      Knowing this now, I feel that my doc,is not really very understanding about this condition and don't trust their judgement. Tried to change gp surgery to another but can't. Tried to contact the practice manager, left messages on the answer machine. Never got a reply.

      Stuck between a rock and a hard place

  • oldboy
    oldboy jason1602

    Posted

    Hi Jason

    Yes,  Citalopram takes several weeks to become effective. Try to put up with the side effects.  If you cannot,  see a doctor.  

    Doctors prefer to speak face to face - not over the phone.  You will get more attention that way.

    If you do not trust your doctor you can probably try another one at the same practice.   I did that.   I simply asked for an appointment  with another one.  

    If all you need is information about medications and their side effects you are better Googling it on the web or reading this website. 

    • jason1602
      jason1602 oldboy

      Posted

      I have no probs with the effects. But they only gave me four weeks worth. . Two weeks on 10 mg then two weeks at 20mg . . Then nothing. . Bang . . nothing. What sort of doctor does this . ? An incompetent one is my answer.

      Why does the practice manager does not return my messages . . ? Trying to hide that one of their GP's messed up is my answer

      The doctor's here prefer to talk over the phone and like I said in my last reply, already tried to change practice but can't

      They are the main reasons I won't go back there. How can I trust them . . ?

    • oldboy
      oldboy jason1602

      Posted

      I think you misunderstand how GP practices work. 

      In the early stages of treatment, doctors only prescribe for a month because they expect you to see them again within a month. That is standard  practice.  It is up to you, not them, to arrange to see them again. 

      You have probably annoyed people at the practice by not fitting in with their way of doing things.

       

    • jason1602
      jason1602 oldboy

      Posted

      Thank you for letting me know what I should of done.

      Pity the doctor didn't tell me this. . . Bit difficult though in a 45 second phone call.

      Any tips on telepathy so I can find out things for any future encounters I may have to have with them

    • patricia44773
      patricia44773 jason1602

      Posted

      I don't think you should be rude to anyone on here who takes the trouble to try to help you.  And sarcasm is the lowest form of wit you know!!

      Hope things work out for you.

       

    • jason1602
      jason1602 patricia44773

      Posted

      Apologise for the sarcasm.

      Wasn't being rude. I said thank you for letting me know what I should of done.

      I haven't had the need to go to see a doctor in twenty years. I don't know what standard practices are. The last time I need a doctor you phoned up made an appointment and attended the surgery.

    • patricia44773
      patricia44773 jason1602

      Posted

      Okay, I understand.  My daughter is a GP and they are struggling so hard now to keep up with the pressures put upon them.  They DO care and they are in the profession becuase they care about people.  It's a lot of years of study to become a doctor and the pay isn't all that great....so the ones who end up as GP's usually are in it because they care about people.  If they seem uncaring it's because they just have not the time that our old fashioned  family doctors used to have for their patients.

      My daughter regularly tells me that they cannot manage to see patients in the 10 minutes they are allocated and do all that they should.  It's how the NHS is now, they are short on funds and the patient suffers.

      Anyway, I very much appreciate you answering my post, I thought you would just be cross at me, so thank you.

      Don't give up.......just try to see what pressure the doctors are under and I am sure you will receive the treatment that you need in the end.

      Sorry if I was harsh on you.

      Pat xxxx

    • jason1602
      jason1602 patricia44773

      Posted

      No probs. . I know they are under pressure. I admire all who work for the NHS.

      Three years of trying to get help for sever depression and extreme loneliness is taking it toll on me and each time that I try, and get nowhere just strengthens my thoughts of being worthless and makes things worse.

      I feel they don't take me serious as I still have a job and go to work each day. That's about the only part of my life that hasn't been affected. I have no friends or family that I çan talk to. Apart from work (self em0loyed and work on my own all day) haven't been out socialising in 4 years. Lost all interest in all the things I used to do. Just feel like a living zombie, I'm not suicidal but I don't want to live anymore either if that makes any sense

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