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I'm in a bit of a rutt right now with things and I saw this forum with all the insight you guys give and thought some of you could maybe reassure me or give me advice <3
I've been on 20mg of citalopram every morning for the past 2 and a half years, never had any side effects going on them, and with CBT I was for the most part feeling awesome. However since the start of this year my anxiety has started creeping in again. I've been working from home for the past year and a half so I don't get out a lot and i've become a bit of a hermit.
Basically what triggered me upping my dose was a few really intense really bad panic attacks earlier this year now i've been told by my therapist I have a panic disorder. I've gone to my GP and upped my dose to 40mg (one week on 30mg and now three weeks on 40mg) and I know it's still early but I've been through the really rough part (mostly the hopelessness/depression I had about two weeks in) and I was starting to regain some of myself. Then out of nowhere the past two days i've been crazy teary/crying and my anxiety is triggered extremely easilly, as in, i'll get a txt on my phone and my body goes into instant fight or flight mode like the start of a panic attack.
It's driving me nuts. I'm finding it really hard to eat and I hardly leave the house. It took a lot for me to go out with my Dad to get dinner and I didn't end up eating any of it when we got home. I'm still doing CBT but I'm also trying to give my body some breathing room to get used to the upped dosage.
I know it gets better... and I know i'm just going through the waves of feeling better until things do actually feel comfortable again... but I'm in a gross part of it and I just wan't to know when things will start getting better from people who know first hand.
Thank you to anyone who gives advice or even just reads this <3
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