Posted , 4 users are following.
3 years ago I went through Alcohol withdrawl. I drank since I was a kid on the weekend and didn't get drinking every night until I was around 35. I was drinking about a pint of Vodka a night. Just watching tv after work and having a few drinks. I'm big so I never got drunk and it just became something I did.
I decided to quit one day when I had a cold. 3 days later I was in a nightmare!!!!! Fight or Flight All day depression set in. I went to a doctor and he said I was going through alcohol withdrawl and I needed to take Ativan. He prescribed the pills and I didn't take them for 30 days because I didn't think I would survive.
The pills made me feel better! But I was still in bad shape and was diagnosed with PAWS and PTSD from prior jobs I had. I was prescribed Celexa to take over for the Ativan.
I switched over to Valium because I read the Ashton manual. So over a 5 month period I tapered off 15mg Valium and the Celexa kicked in and I was fine. Stayed on the Celexa 40mg for about 6 more months and tapered off that and was fine for 3 years. My life was back!
This October my son took his life and I went right back to what felt like the Alcohol Withdrawl. The doctor told me it is because the loss of my son and the PTSD. I am destroyed over my son, he was 21. I miss him so very much!!!!
I was prescribed Ativan, Torazodone, and Celexa. I tried to stick it out for a few weeks and broke down and started taking the meds Nov. 1st
I switched over to the Valium again. I am on 5mg 3x a day. 25mg Torazodone and 30mg Celexa. I am not feeling good all day with the fight or flight and depression. The Valium is no longer working. I think I have tolerance to it. I want of it and the Torazodone! My doctor wants me to get to 40mg Celexa and advices me not to start tapering anything right now until I get stable.
He told me when it's time, he will go as slow as I want with the Valium. He recommended 10% every one to two weeks.
After all of that, and I do apologize; I am concerned I am going to go through hell when I start the taper? I've never been so scared of something like this in my life. The doctor tells me to stop worrying and that we will get off them together. I feel like if they're not helping me I miswell start tapering now?
I think the Torazodone might be a problem too because I forgot to take it a view nights and felt even worse the next day!!!
I'm sorry guys, I am just trying to make it through this for my wife and other son and it is so hard!!!!! I am afraid because I did this 3 years ago this is going to be a worse nightmare!!!
Please, I can't take any horror stories. I think a lot of my problem is the worrying.
Also, by around 5pm I start to feel better. And I can sleep. But when I wake up, I'm at my worst. I take the Celexa at 9am. Valium 7am, 1pm, and 7pm and Torazodone at 10pm
Thank you so much!!!!!
1 like, 5 replies