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I have finally finished weaning off Venlafaxine. I am on day 8 now from withdrawing and I am struggling to find the strength inside me to carry on :-( This is hell, I have never known mental torture like it. I had been on Venlafaxine since the middle of last year. Started on low doses, but had to have them upped as they weren't working for me. It got to around February this year and I had to say/do something... I couldn't go on any longer. I had a huge relapse/break down whatever you may call it and thought I cannot keep taking this medication it is making me worse! I was on 225 mg in the end and I felt as though I wasn't me anymore, I couldn't feel anything :-( that being emotions, purpose, love, meaning - anything! I was numb!
When the weaning process began mid March, after discussing it with my psychiatrist to do it even slower than what he recomended, I was fine. He warned me of certain side effects and the main two I was feeling was 'flu like symptoms' & headaches. It took me 6 week to wean off the antidepressants and I couldn't believe how fine I actually was. BUT OH NO, WAS I WRONG! That wasn't even the start! The day after taking my very last tablet was herroundous :-( I started having the side effects of withdrawal: brain zaps, severe anxiety, severe diarrhea (I suffer with IBS, it made it worse - it brought more attacks on), stomach ache, nausea, dizziness, insomnia, vivid dreams, nightmares, mood swings, palpitations, heart beating very fast, shakes, I feel really depressed, low, upset, very emotional, suicidal, fed up, angry, irritable, confused, up, down, scared... I'm going out of my mind :'( I am still having all of the side effects now and I cannot believe that this is happening to me. I cannot believe that such a drug is out there and given to us! Its so easy for the 'professionals' to dish out the meds and not warn us of all this :-( I am beside myself. Please can somebody help the pain and comfort me, tell me it gets better please! :-( Is this all normal? Will I ever be happy again? Will I survive without any medication? How can I get through this? What advice do you have? I just want reassuring :-(
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