Venlafaxine withdrawal - there is hope!
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I've previously posted on another discussion thread about coming off venlafaxine - I was about to take the plunge myself - but rather than re-post on that thread I thought I'd start a new one to give my account of my experience and I hope a chance of light at the end of that awful tunnel for others.
Diagnosed with clinical depression many years ago most of my adult life has been spent on one or another SSRI - finally arriving at venlafaxine ten years ago as nothing much else was helping. At this time my mood was scraping the bottom of the barrel - emotionally I was empty & swung between desolate and merely oppresively sad.
I can't completely right off vnlfx - it did lift me initially and give me motivation, but unfortunately over the years the efficacy weakened and therefore the dose I was taking increased - until at the beginning of 2012 I was on 300mg daily.
As I progressed through last year it became obvious that not only was vnlfx not helping me in anyway, it was also producing some alarming side effects - these had crept in slowly over the years and I had been so caught up with my mental health I hadn't noticed. Forgetting a dose resulted in the most debilitating nausea, dry mouth and brain zaps - I began to fear going away and forgetting my medication or not being abe to get to the pharmacy for a prescription and running out. All the time I continued presenting myself as a contented, together, capable professional woman, and as any of us who suffer mental illness know, this 24/7 act is absolutely exhausting. By the autumn of this year I was sleeping in huge chunks. The sedative effect of the drug combined with being asleep being an excellent way of hiding from my problems, I found it all to easy to succumb to sleep. I'd sleep for ten hours solid at night, then wake for a few hours in the morning, feel sleepy and give in - only to wake again briefly during the evening before the cycle began again. Luckily working a shift pattern as well meant I could get away with this, but my non-working hours were spent asleep & hiding from the world.
I don't know why the lightening bolt hit, but once day I became aware that this was no quality of life & went to see my GP about withdrawal from vnlfx. I must emphasise here that my GP has been wonderful during the entire time I have known her, and I'm aware that I'm lucky to be in this situation. She was aware of anecdotal evidence of vnlfx withdrawal syndrome and we made a plan for a very slow dose decrease - suffering such marked side effects when late taking my meds meant that we were expecting a tough ride.
I cannot emphasise too much just how important it is to go slowly slowly slowy, and to reduce your dosages by tiny amounts. Each time I cut down too quickly, or reduced the dose too quickly I'd be pole-axed by side effects and mental disturbance. A couple of times I did think about giving up, and remaining on vnlfx for life - but the thought of returning to that hideous emotional no-man's land was enough to motivate me to pick up & go back to the previous 'good' dose again & persevere. The key stage was probably getting down to a quarter of a 37.5mg tablet (told you the dose reduction needs to be minute!) and then my doctor adding in fluoxetine 20mg for two weeks before I took the plunge and took my last ever dose of vnflx. That was over six weeks ago and the relief I feel now is immeasurable. I now have clarity of thought and emotion to the extent that I can't ever remember having before. Don't get me wrong, I'm still clinically depressed, there is no magic wand, but I feel just like I have been released from venlafaxine taking my mind prisoner. I don' t think that unless you have experienced this drug first hand you can possibly imagine just how much it really ***ks with your mind - absolutely terrifying.
Key to my success has been managing to find a therapist that by some fluke I have a superb connection with and weekly sessions with her have been more valuable to me than any drug ever has. I expect to be seeing her for a very long time to come - to reiterate i'm by no means 'cured' but am happy at last to be back in control of my mind.
Happy to pass on further details of what worked for me on my withdrawal - I kept a diary, helps you have faith to get through the bad days - but please don't expect miracles, I know that just because it's worked for me it may not suit anyone else.
But - please do have hope! I was one of the many in despair on here a few months back not ever being able to see a way to get free of this hideous drug, but I've done it, so it can be done
xxxx
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annasch
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Good news is that I did it! I came off the horror drug - no, it wasn't a pleasant experience in any way - but i'm off it for good and i'm back in charge of my own mind. The masking with Prozac was the key for me, I still had the withdrawal symptoms but nothing like as severe as when I tried to do it without. I can't emphasise too much just how important it is to go very very slowly and cut down in tiny amounts, I was chopping the tiniest pills into quarters and mixing the bits with soft cheese - that's how slowly i took it!
I did have a relapse. About eight weeks after i had my last ever dose of Ven I felt so good that I just stopped taking the prozac (I was only on 20mg, thought that was nothing after the high dose of ven i'd been on for years) and had a massive slump. My poor mind just couldn't cope with another alteration in the chemicals i'd been pumping in and went into melt down. Suffice to say I went back on the Prozac with the help of my excellent GP and back to my wonderful therapist until things were a back under control.
In August I went with friends to a music festival. Felt bright, engaged and looking forward to it but woke up in the tent in the morning and had my first ever panic attack! Of course my first thoughts were 'I need the Ven back, I can't cope without it' but I luckily had the support of very good friends who reminded me of everything I'd (we'd) been through with the withdrawal, how out of my head i'd been whilst on it, and how much more in control I'd felt since no longer having it in my system. They also reminded me that going through the process of withdrawal and succeeding showed just how much mental strength I had, that this was just a blip and my mantra: 'IT WILL PASS!' was true.
I can't say i'm carefree, happy go lucky these days - of course not, I suffer from a mental illness that cannot be cured - but I am back in control of my mind and when the bad times come I have the rationality to put coping mechanisms into place. Most importantly I can say to myself 'IT WILL PASS' and believe in it.
I do actually experience good times and happy times too, rather than just that feeling of watching the world go on without you through a steamed up window - my explanation to others of how venlafaxine affected my consciousness.
Things that have helped me:
Talk to people who also suffer - the isolation of believing you are the only one is one of the most damaging weapons this illness has.
Meditation - I always dismissed as airy-fairy. Not at all, the joy of being able to train yourself to be able to empty your mind of all thoughts, even for a brief period of time is indescribable! Try the myHeadspace app and give it time...
Write things down - I have a notebook, I write the bad feelings down, but also the good feelings. However small and seemingly insignificant you can remind yourself that you are capable of good times and that they will come again.
Have a mantra - 'IT WILL PASS' is mine. Life is fluid and constantly changing - ebb and flow. There will be respite. I ought to have this tattoed somewhere!
Read about mental illness - I've read so many books about people's experiences of mental illness, that realisation again that most people out there however together and chirpy they may appear outside have had some experience of it helps you feel less isolated. The cricketer Marcus Trescothick's autobiography 'coming back to me' is superb and Sally Brampton's 'Shoot the damn Dog' - particularly as she also went through the horror drug withdrawal is hugely comforting and inspiring.
I've read in a number of these books that depression is far more likely to occur in people who are very strong, have high standards, who care about others more than themselves and don't want to let themselves or others down. We keep on going, making so much effort and exhausting ourselves emotionally just to maintain that aura of 'being normal' coping and not falling to pieces. No wonder when we collapse it's so intense.
Please respect yourselves as precious and valuable human beings - one of my biggest learnings is that I have to look after myself first!
It will happen, you CAN get venlafaxine out of your system, you do not need to be imprisoned in your own mind by this drug!!!
Love to all,
Anna
debora77601 annasch
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Love to you.
annemarie36910
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thomas25220
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maureen45116
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jaye76671 maureen45116
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Sam4347 annasch
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ruthann Sam4347
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I was out of town last night and realized I left my make up bag along with my meds, at home. Panic set in immediately.
I'm home now, and in bed. These withdrawl symptoms are unbearable. I need to be free from this poison.
KimPH ruthann
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Fish oil seems to be a very common suggestion for the withdrawals. It's on the list of products The Road Back has too. Might be worth checking out.
Others have said that going on Prozac or Zoloft eased some of the more severe symptoms. They are different meds from ven, so the withdrawals aren't the same.
I hope all works out for you!!
mary68293 annasch
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pixie22 mary68293
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raymond14230 annasch
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simonbadock annasch
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Furthermore, annasch's advice for going slowly, slowly, slowly, is very, very, very sound advice indeed.
I've been reading all these fascinating posts as I had been seriously considering augmenting Ven. in conjunction to my Mirtazepine. However, after reading up on some of the horrendous withdrawal symptoms described by the brave people on this discussion, I have my doubts on starting up with Ven. in the first place with Ven. I was enthusiastic and may have gotten caught up in the whole "California Rocket Fuel" headline of combining Mirtazapine together with Ven.
So thanks to all these great posts, I'm keeping this brief as I'm typing away on my tiny phone screen and it's giving me a headache. I'll sure to contribute to this forum as I'd love to be able to help someone in a similar way as this forum has helped me.
Thanks,
Simon
KimPH annasch
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Thank you all for sharing your journeys. There is very little information from any medical community about how to manage these withdrawals, which I think is terrible. We should know what we're up against and professionals should be prepared to help us more.
And just of note, I am in the U.S. I didn't realize venlafaxine was in the U.K. too.