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I've had PACs and VPCs and I think even Atrial tachy for 7 years now...
Not even a thought about them, Even when an SVT came, it went away after a few minutes and I waited it out usually without second thought mostly because I had so few of them.
a month ago my heart felt like I am too happy and content with my life and went into an 11 hours long flutter of 160... forced trip to the hospital, ablation... and I am not the same person. I had another serious episode since then, one where I felt my heart stops after a 2 hours of fast heartbeat. I lost feeling in arms and legs and it felt like I am dying. I was home alone and it was scary. I remembered to cough hard and I don't know if that did it but just before blacking out my heart returned to beat. I came to and went to the hospital which bore nothing since I was in sinus when the medics arrived.
The most scary thing is that I don't trust the doctors. These events came after long time complaining about pains in the chest and the pancreas area. Pains I am still with today with no treatment. I have tons of stories of people who were wrongly diagnosed or suffered for years only to have their problems solved by some holy doctor or alternative method. The "what if" is killing my mind.
This second episode made me weaker, more anxious, with many more sensations about my heart including waking up in the middle of the night scared of the next flutter or irregularity. Tons of skipped beats which I didn't feel before the procedure. I'm fatigued, have pressure in my head, pain in the armpits and lightheadness.
I went a long way from suffering from anxiety into being a calm person. I face things without second thought which would make me break down years ago. Even the ablation I did with a smile and no fear (beside the needle... I hate needles XD ).
But my heart decided to give me a freaking huge test to my resolve. I am trying to stay calm and mostly I know my situation is not dangerous and I won't die of it. But it is disturbing me. it is very unpleasant. and as a strong person I could have lived with all of this if I only knew I could trust the doctors to make it go away.
But I can't. I feel I have to diagnose myself and find treatments by myself.
And that is what frustrates me most of all...
Thanks for listening.
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