Venting Out About My Ongoing Anxiety Phase
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Hi there, reader
so uh its been almost 2 months now since i first had this health anxiety of mine. couldn't sleep early tonight so i thought that i'll crash in to the forums again and to try to vent out. There were some days where i feel good and don't feel anything unusual to my body like chewing, swallowing, speaking, general body strength and all of them shts but there will be some days where there will be some subtle sensations. probably the main problem for it is because i tend to hyperfocus in these feelings that might be just normal for my body and just happened for me to be focusing on it like TOO MUCH to the point that maybe my brain is altering my perception towards my own fcking body. Trying to convince my brain that i don't have any neurological or some sort of ongoing terminal disease that could get worse as the time goes by day by day. One of the things that i just do in order for me to be able to control the stability of my mental state is by overthinking as well but in a good way like for example, i kept on thinking about this thing and that stuff that might get worse blah blah blah and then if those negative overthinking would occur, i'll just try to counter it with logic and good reasonings like "But its like this and that and its not that simple, its way more complicated and severe, so i might not have it or probably just the cause of it are some other sort of imbalances on a daily basis of your life like my sleep or my mental health is slowly deteriorating so its providing me with some physical symptoms as well, do other people experience this as well that are really not having an ongoing death sentence and is perfectly fine" and some more other type of thoughts that would make sense for me in order to stabilize my head as much as possible. i just wanted this anxious phase of mine to end the sooner the better but at the same time, i'm gonna need all the time that i could get. weird atrophy or malformations on the left side of my tongue, a bit deteriorated appearance nearby the tip of my tongue at the left side with no fasciculations or weakness though, some weird swallowing sensations that i couldn't label out accurately if its a progressive yet subtle change on my throat muscles, my voice changing or like the ranges that my voice could reach did it changed or not, ah whatever. it all comes and goes randomly. still doing my best on overcoming this hellhole that I'am currently dealing with as of now. hoping for everyone on this forums to overcome their own worries and anxiety as well. we can do this together 😃
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jan34534 miguel34492
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One thing that I learned from counseling is that it’s important to stay out of my head and live my life. Also, remember that what we focus on with our thinking will become stronger and stronger so it’s best to focus on positive things and let go of the negative.
miguel34492 jan34534
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Yeah, still trying my utmost best on convincing myself that my only problem is my mental state. kept forgetting on how powerful our minds could be especially if its not stable enough to contain itself. there's some improvements on my usual habits where i stopped checking out my tongue too frequently and maybe will just do it every other day instead. sometimes, i'm just gonna be thinking about other people's situation as well that are much more worse than mine yet their body is still perfectly fine or no dirty results from lab tests. I will just keep my fighter spirit on for more days to come in order for me to be able to FINALLY overcome this someday.