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Hey my name is Kira and I am 19. I've just made an account on this site as I am at a loss on what to do or how to overcome this. So let me begin explaining a bit of what I am experiencing.
So here we go.. in the last 3 or so months I have been experiencing really awful health anxiety. I've never been through this before so it's very confronting.. my health and trying to keep myself from dying is literally all I think about from the minute I wake until the minute I fall asleep. So much so that I won't leave my house or even my bed most days. I've formed a few annoying habits for example I check my pulse every 2-5 minutes, poke and prod all over my body looking for tumours (so much so that it's leaving bruises) and have an overwhelming need to check my throat for a lump that I can feel when I've been breathing and drinking. My heart races most of the day so I continuously check it and I also get pains in my left arm and leg that I automatically link to cancer or heart disease. My stomach can make normal noises and catch me off guard and I'll jump straight to "my stomach is about to collapse on itself". I've been in hospital to get checked 7 times in the last few weeks and had numerous doctors appointments. I can barely sleep or function anymore. The lump in my throat is what's plaguing me right now, I only noticed it about 4 days ago and I convinced it is cancer. Someone please tell me there is a light at the end of this horribly dark tunnel? Or at least a glimmer of hope? I'm so scared to die and it's all I think about..
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