Waiting to die now

Hello

I see were you are coming from. I too was prescribed co codamol which you know is an opiate.

I only took  two a day. Then went to one every three days! Honestly. I suffered tremendously on this drug. I could not believe that such a small amount could cause such serious problems.

When aneurologist told me about codeine I stopped taking it, ten days later the severe headaches subsided considerably. I did not take any more for over a year. Sadly and it was with good intentions a GP prescribed them again for a back problem. I told her that I was not supposed to have them but she said thatafter one year I should be alright.

Sadly she was wrong. I am off them nowbut it is so easy to become dependant, addicted call it what you may without realising it. So innocently.

Anyway I personally will never take even a ttiny dose of codeine ever again. No way.

 

I take 8 30/500 mg of codeine a day. I take 9 Gabapentin 300mg a day and am know morphine patches 10mg per hour. I have lost my job, lost my friends, lost my mobility, I lost my job of 10 years. I had everything and have been reduced to nothing. I merely exist. I DON'T live. I don't know how I have kept my partner?? I have no joy in my life. Nothing brings pleasure. I just feel like death would be an end to my misery.I can't take it anymore

Wayne

?This is the opiates talking . You are on a lot so it is no small wonder that you feel like this.

Trust me the opiates make people feel like this. You can research this for yourself to confirm what I am writing.

If you feel motivated enough google opiates, their adverse reactions and the withdrawal signs and symptoms and how to manage these.

Opiates are very nasty drugs honestly.

?I found this out myself after my neurologist identified them as the cause of my severe headaches, throbbing pain in my eyes, anorexia, severe anxiety and severe depression such as never experienced in my life before. Also sweating at night drenching my nighwear. I yalked to other people and was asounded to learn that lots of people are affected by codeine and have had very nasty experiences on it.

It is possible to come off it. Your bacjk pain can be due to your lowered pain threshold as codeine and other opistes suppress the body's natural anti depressants and pain killers, the endorphins.

You may be eligible for a detox centre.

If not you can taper off these drugs safely at home under medical guidance. I saw a facebookmpage called cymbalta hurts worse, there is a mine of professional info on there about tapering etc from drs who specialise in drug withdrawal.but under medical guidance at home/

I know at the moment you cannot accept this but itnis true. It is the opiates.

Is the gabapentin/neurontin prescribed for pain? This drug causes severe depression.

 

Thanks for your kind words. I have however felt like this since I was 19. When I injured my back then I suffered the worse injury that can happen to a man, especially a young one. The drugs may have increased these tendencies but since I was 19 they have always been there. I am living a lie with my partner as a result of that injury. Before I started taking the drugs and git Modic Changes in my back I always felt I had very little to live for. I would love to go into more detail but the last thing I want to do is cause any offence especially to someone who is trying to help. You are very kind and I will look into what you have advised. Many thanks

Wayne,

If you don't mind me asking how did you injure your back?

I get the sense that your back injury has limited you so much that it has turned into frustration and pulled you way down into a hole. I felt the same way for a long time myself because nobody could seem to help me and my problems started when I was about 18yrs old (38 now). The only thing doctors could do was give me anti-depressants, steroids, cortisone shots, gabapentin, lyrica, Vicodin and oxycodone. My pain was so bad that the medicine didn't even help. I finally figured out what was wrong and found medicine that worked about 3 yrs ago but before I figured out what was wrong I was taking 300mg of oxycodone a day! I was optimistic that I could taper down when the pain was gone but I just became miserable because I would constantly be in mild withdrawals and all the suffering just made the days miserable! Since I couldn't taper I tried cold turkey but after a few days it was just unbearable and I would find my good old pills and off I went. I tried many times but I couldn't kick them. I thought I was taking the medicine for pain but once the pain was gone I could not make it through a single day without them or it was a miserable day. Dependent or addicted it all boils down to you need the pills to function day to day after many years of being on them no matter how hard people want to believe that they can just stop. Opiotes change the brain chemistry semi-permanently and that is the hardest part to try and change back to the way it was before the pills. Only time without opiotes will allow the chemistry to change back and for someone that has been on them a long time it requires a lot more time which is why it is so hard to do.

Anyways it sounds like you have severe back problems but depression is definitely elevated with opiote pain medicine! The only way to help depression while on pain killers is to take more or get off of them all together. Believe me getting off of them is the best thing to do. I haven't had any oxycodone for 6 months now and I feel pretty good. My journey at the moment is a short road but I am a lot happier than I was 6 months ago and my wife and kids are glad to see their dad back.

Tell your doctor how you are really feeling! He will be able to help.

Once again, Hang in there! You can get through this!

Brilliant advice if I may say so.  xxxxx