Walking on clouds?
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Hi guys,
I'm struggling with anxiety disorder and depression for 3 years now. I've had a very tough time and I feel like I'm disconnected from life. I hardly did anything what a normal person should do. I'm 20 yo and I'm sick and tired of it. I even have a hard time doing groceries..
I had moments when things went better then now, but currently I'm just at the lowest point. I feel really miserable 24/7. I'm trying to figure out what I could do to change this. It's hard to keep motivated for a long time, because it feels endless.
The things where I struggle most with are are this c really miserable feeling where I was talking about, fear of losing control and going crazy, depressive thoughts and derealization.
Because I didn't do a lot I feel disconnected with this world (physically and mentally). I'm trying kick myself again into a position that I do things again, so I am going to walk everyday 2 times a day a half hour. My goal is to take runs after I'm more comfortable and fit. It's not always possible to do this with someone. Mostly when I'm waking alone I'm starting to experience weird physical sensation because I'm more concentrated on myself. I listen to music, but it doesn't give me that much distraction. I don't really want the distraction, but I want to change this feeling. I think when I distract myself I don't change a lot. But I wonder if this feeling is all because of that I didn't do a lot? It feels pretty strong and I can't walk in a straight line. I actually have this cloudy feeling in my body too. I'm now on day 3 and the feeling keeps coming back.
Now I'm hoping that I can kick myself under my but for a longer period then usual even when I feel completely miserable. My goal is to do this for a month and then check results. I'm hoping it will help me out to take other steps as well. One positive thing I already noticed is that fresh air everyday do me well. It's a hard challenge for myself and especially for myself, but I just want to be proud of myself for once and see a positive change.
Any advice and tips? It will be much appreciated! I wonder if maybe other people experienced good positive changes when doing sports? It will help me keep motivated.
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jan34534 Contakt2
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GOOD FOR YOU!! you are taking steps to improve yourself mentally, emotionally and physically. When I was in my 20s I had your same physical symptoms and I let it consume me and make myself miserable. As I got older, they only appeared when I was really stressed or anxious.
But I learned something. And that is even with symptoms and negative thoughts, I kept pressing and pressing and started working out like you are doing. I work out even when I have symptoms. Even if symptoms are there, you’re taking care of yourself is huge! It might not seem like it but it really is. When you walk like that you are releasing endorphins in your brain that fight against stress, anxiety and any illnesses .
Combine that with healthy eating and staying hydrated and you are doing yourself a big favor! I found that I get good days and bad days but I still keep pressing on no matter what. I figure if I just sit there and get overwhelmed everything gets worse. My symptoms have drastically decreased but I’ll be honest when I’m anxious I still get them here and there but I basically ignore them. I am not going to let anxiety ruin my life anymore.
another huge part of this is mental attitude. Anytime a negative thought appears simply say NO! Anxiety GET lost! and I think of something that I am truly grateful for. Such as being alive, looking at beautiful nature, my family, etc. Be determined and be a fighter for yourself! Nobody else can do it for us. Every day, press on, press through everything!
you are doing a great job! And tell yourself that every day.
I like to do positive self affirmations such as “I am strong. I am resilient. I am grateful. I am joyful. Etc. these affirmations are also on YouTube.
REMEMBER, Whatever we think gets magnified in our brain, whether it’s positive or negative!!!
Continue you take great care of yourself. ❤❤❤
Contakt2 jan34534
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That's nice to hear!:)
How long did it take for you to notice improvements? I know it's probably for everyone different.
Unfortunately I'm still on a depressed level, so I have still such a big journey to go. My self confidence is on a super low level. It has been my whole life, but I could hide it in the past. It developed due of a tough youth. I did multiple therapy to try to help myself, but none worked. It feels so deeply routed and it keeps me so down. Before I had a anxiety disorder my life was already affected a lot by it. I don't want to blame it all on the past, but I think it's a big part on how my life has been in the past years.
My life has been such a drama. I mis so much opportunities.. Today I had a bad day. I was really p****d off because of everything. I can't work, go to school, see my friends, see my family, go out etc. I even have a hard time going shopping.. I'm doing it every day(not alone), but I feel so bad, my anxiety is automatic on a high level too because of this and I feel quickly oversensitive.
Sometimes I may think something is wrong with which I can't change, because I'm struggling with it for so long. This thought is lately sprinkling through my head a lot.
Anyway, taking walks is where I would start now and hopefully it will make me more energetic and comfortable to take other steps as well. When I'm home (and I've been a lot at home!) I'm watching so much to screens etc. It doesn't feel good at all, but I don't have a lot to do. I'm quickly bored, but I think that's normal when you are constantly in the same place over and over again. On average I think I'm busy over 8 hours watching at screens and it feels very unhealthy. It's a habit that I want to change badly, but my anxiety isn't helping me either. But, first I'll start walking and try to let everything else go as much as I can.
grace59010 Contakt2
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i am currently feeling the same way at the moment. i keep questioning my existence. i started therapy today for it. im also majorly depressed, but i have no reason for it. i feel emotionally numb inside like nothing matters. its really scary because you feel isolated from everyone even when you are not alone.
Contakt2 grace59010
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In my case I know why I'm feeling depressed (I think) but I can't change it easily because of my anxiety.
Anxiety and depression is such a hard combo to deal with.
I get this feeling like emotionally nothing matters. Or well, I want it to matter, but it's like you are not balanced. I try to get some tears sometimes, but they just won't come and this makes me again feel very miserable. I'm not on a level where I just want to lay down and I don't give a sht anymore, because I want to change and I have some sort of motivati
Contakt2
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motivation* but it feels like a knob I'm struggling to turn around.
Anyway, with this walks I am going to try to set my mind on zero and go whatever holds me down. The feeling that I can't get out of the situation isn't there so that should make it a bit easier. But the first 3 days I've been feeling very uncomfortable doing it. Hopefully improvements will give me a feeling of hope again.
I wish you luck on your journey:)
jan34534 Contakt2
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yes, screens are bad . they can actually increase anxiety and depression.
take one day at a time. i started feeling better after around a couple months or so.
hang in there. ❤
Contakt2 jan34534
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Yes, I'm sure they do. I've been walking for 5 days nows and I've got a route which is some what easier to do already. It's only a 15 minute walk, but it's still tough. I feel a bit better actually now I'm walking twice a day. I feel less miserable, but less isn't enough. I've gotta go to a level where I'm fully comfortable again with myself. There is still a huge way to go, but I feel this is a good step in the right direction. Today is took a different route and it was again way harder then my usual one. The last 2 days I've been walking alone so that's tougher too.
I'm only afraid that my anxiety disorder will have permanent damage. Like everything I've been through. It can't just go away? All the anxious thoughts etc. Well, maybe that needs time too.
rosie53203 Contakt2
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There are many ways to treat anxiety disorder and depression, including treatment and/or medication, Cognitive behavioral therapy, etc. The most effective way to treat anxiety disorder and depression is Cognitive behavioral therapy, also known as CBT. You can try this method.
Contakt2 rosie53203
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I've done all of that and honestly, I think it's yourself eventually who has to do it and no one else. If someone says something to me I think 100 times about it during the day. I've done therapy for 2 years and I felt like just another number. I've read a book about ssri medicine and I'm convinced that ain't the way for me as well. It's all placebo and I'm too much of a thinker to really have a positive results of that. I already took lots of different medicine and they didn't gave me any great results. Anyway, I'm on a waiting list for more specialized anxiety symptoms, but I've to wait for it up to 6 months.. I see it as a extra for me. The only therapy which has helped me a bit was EMDR, but I was too uncomfortable to really take the impact of it fully.