Week 5 and I feel worse

Thanks Laurie - I just feel so anxious and now I am losing weight (which I can't afford to do).  My nerves in my body just seem to be on fire all the time.  Trying to be patient, but hard, very hard.  My throat feels on fire but doesn't hurt when I swallow.  Never had this before.  Of course I am worryng about it constantly.  I haven't don't this in a long time.  I don't feel human anymore

Anxiety is a horrible thing. It makes us think and feel so many horrible things. I hate it. It's so controlling and makes me feel weak. Just hold on as best you can and if you need to talk to your doctor about what you are feeling. It's always good to keep them informed about the different reactions we are having.

Laurie

Everything I think is enormous to me.  The anxiety is making things much worse than they are.  I try to calm down and take an adivan but I don't want to get use to them and then have a whole new problem.  I just went home and cried for an hour at lunch.  Maybe that will help.  Insomonia is a big problem.  I have only been sleeping 4-5 hours a night for the past four weeks.  And when I wake up it just starts all over again.  No concentration and no pleasure.  Thank god for my husband....

I know how you feel. If it wasn't for my husband and kids I would probably be dead. I have clonazepam for anxiety, but it's not helping as much anymore and I'm so afraid of getting addicted to it. I see my psychiatrist tomorrow morning and we will see what he has to say. I really need something for this insane anxiety. I'm just so damned tired and scared.

Laurie

 Hey Susan & Laurie 

It's a very tough road. I had a very similar path - could not sleep without zopiclone and lorazepam and was only get 2-4 hours sleep for the first 4 weeks. I was actually put on Floux as I had anxiety towards sleep and becoming addicted to the sleeping medication (crazy). Basically my body shut down after not sleeping for 3 days. I was terrified...I lost 12 kg in two weeks. 

Now I'm  just at the start of week 8 and I can sleep without or with very little meds and I have not taken lorazepam for over a week. I have some slight head pressure now and then and the odd light headache, but very managable. I also really enjoy eating. 

I had the same anxiety towads all the medication I was taking, as I was convinced I would get addicted. I guess the key thing is in a few weeks you should be in a position where you don't have to take so much to manage the anxiety/sleep and you kind of forget about your fears towards the meds. 

This is a crazy journey, but just take one day at a time. I actually got to the stage at about week 5-6 where I understood that it was just the medication and I knew it would pass. 

Best of luck and I hope you both get some positive days soon. 

Craig, 

Thank you so much for always being here with some positive insight and support. It means a great deal to me that you are always close by to help.

You make a difference for me and I look forward to you help. Please don't stop sharing. I really need your experience and kindness.

Thank you

Laurie

Thank you Craig - I don't know what I would do without this support.  No one else understands.  They say take a pill and you will feel better, but no one gets the side effects.  I had a doctor appointment today and I am staying on 20 mg for now.  I don't want to up unless I have to.  My weight is low - lost 10 pounds in a month.  Assured doctor I was eating.   So hopefully I wont obsesss about this now.  But anxiet is high.  Last night I actuall slept 7 hours.  for the first time  in four weeks. 

thank you

Susan

I can't wait for that point in my life. Tired of doctors, therapy and the whole thing.  I will continue therapy thought since I like her a lot.  She gets me.  Feel all this consumes my mind for days and days and then I get to a breaking point and just cry and cry.  But then better.  I was on paxil when I was in my 30's and I don't remember this stuff at all.  But yes I am hoping for good breaks. Mornings still hard, but nights are getting better.  I just want to stop worrying soo much.  Thank you guys for all you do.  Susan

I can relate to everything being posted. Been on Flu for a week at 10 mg. Bumped to 20mg 3 days ago. Every morning I wake up flooded with anxiety and end up in the bathroom sick for hours. By afternoon I start to feel a little better but by bedtime I start getting worried about the mornings and being sick again. I am so miserable and feel like I can't handle this anymore.

Just made my five week mark today.  Anxiety still.  Evenings are better as people posted they would be.  But sometimes I obsess about things and the prozac has made this worse. Hopefully this will abate in a week or so.  I count the days.  I keep saying "one day at a time."  But I know that is hard.  Be safe.

Susan it will get better. It takes time and so much patience. And every time you're low you feel it'll never get better . This is what we ALL FEEL. It's not just you trust me it's normal. Hang in there try to find things that make you happy.. We are here for support. At five weeks, I was terrible and moving to a new state with two small babies and I would tell my husband I don't know if I'll make it to the new home. Now at week 11 I feel a huge difference and I am positive you will too!

I am so very thankful to all the kind people on this site who are always there to give support and advice. It makes this difficult journey a bit more bareable.

I don't feel so alone or abnormal.

Thank you all

Laurie