Week 7 on Cits

I have been to therapy once a week for 2 months, every other week now, I was on 20mg Cits before and changed to Mirazapine up to 30 mg last October but I was just getting angry on it and nearly lost my family over my behaviour, the doc has made an appointment to see a mental health specialist for an evaluation, before he will perscribe any meds, but no date yet. im in 2 minds now to come off it alltogether as its made no difference in 6 years 

Citalopram like any drug doesn't suit everyone - we are all different I was prescribed Seroxat when I first got ill and I felt as if I was at death's door - I was in a really dark place but they swapped them for Citalopram which suited me much better. When the time came for me to come of it it had to be a really gradual process. Instead of 7 days a week, you do one week at 6 days until you get to one a week and then nothing. Anything quicker than that is like coming down from being really high - not that I know about that but I've read a lot!

In my 20's I used to go clubbing a lot and take ecstacy. The only thing I can compare what I feel like now is how I used to feel in the days following a night out. With clubbing though I always knew that after a few days I would feel better. With this it has been 2 weeks since I stopped taking it I am showing no signs of getting better. In fact if anything I am getting worse as I have just started getting really bad headaches for the first time.

I also experimented with drugs not heavily tho , and was a regular cannabis user, for around 10 years, I quit that 10 years ago as you said the low that followed took away any enjoyment so it was better to stay off it altogether. The funny thing is I quit smoking cigs 14 months ago and started looking after myself cycling, and working out, albeit excessively, felt great was cycling 20 miles several time a week, however stop suddenly around the October hols and swapped meds and focus my energy on the wrong things ie, noisey neighbour, which again excessively and neglected my wife and kids who were trying to talk some sense into me, but couldn,t get thru to me, I ruined chrismas and 2 days later it hit me, hence the change back to cits and the suffering. I was reluctant to take meds from the start and now I believe I was on too low a dose for the last 6 years and now I'm of the opinion that the meds are keeping me down, as I used to have good days before I went on them. 

More or less the same for me. I feel abosolutely great when eating right and exercising. It was over xmas when I stopped running and started going out on the p*ss with my mates. That's when the anxiety started coming on strong so ended up on cits and not been the same since. Just started walking again but even that is a struggle. Just gotta take one day at a time I suppose. But i gurantee you that once I'm feeling better I will never touch another prescribed drug no matter how bad I get in future. Exercise and diet is all your body and mind needs.