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After looking on the Internet for this for about 2 weeks ive decided to post it myself.
Since I've been small I sometimes get these "abstract Nightmares". I recently had one when I had a high temperature. But as I just mentioned I've been getting them from time to time since I was small so they are NOT some weird fever thing.
Before you read the description I would like to add this info about me:
- I'm 14 years old (don't be discouraged)
- My IQ is a little above average (130)
- I USED to have epilepsy, not the typical epilepsy in which people faint but an epilepsy in which I would wake up in the night shaking as if I was receiving an electric shock (which I found out later was sort of the cause of the "attacks" because when they measured me having them(by making me fall asleep under rapidly flashing lights) my brain activity would be very high so it's a sort of overload)
- I suspect myself of having Generalized Anxiety Disorder
These nightmares, I can't find a better word even though these are just abstract thoughts and sometimes (not even sure if there are actually some) image. So these nightmares are one of the worst thing that your mind alone can do to you. I don't even clearly know what they are myself but I just know I have them. They are fear, a direct dose of fear injected into every part of your body. Your brain starts to have an overload and you start falling backwards. Somehow you find yourself thinking of a race. A number of some kind that you haven't done something too... I can't describe it. What I think it is and I'm not even sure I think this is what I think (this is how currupt I am). People inexplicably are angry at me, now this part I'm very confused about because I'm a normal person who is not excessively shouted at (I'm not so arrogant as to suggest that I lead a miserable life). Another thing that I also experience is these weights in some places (I'm not sure where). And during the day when I for example hold something with my hands i get like a weird déjà vu feeling and think to these "Nightmares". This is a brief description of what I get. I'd love to discover what these are and if I'm a looney who psychiatrists will look at me with round eyes. As this description must look weird to some person who is normal (or less weird than me). Im also wondering whether or not its linked to my suspected GAD (parents don't really take me seriously about it).
I hope you read this seriously and I really hope that you could add a comment below with you suggestions/ideas. I even welcome comments like "OMG this is exactly what I get" (even though I doubt that)
Thanks for your attention,
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