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rossg1234
rossg1234

not been out my house in like 4 years now, maybe less or longer can't even remember.  I am scared to go to the toilet, i am scared to take a bath or a shower i am scared to go down stairs, i am scared to drink, beer, tea, coffee and soda i am scared of everything. heat wave is here in the UK  and i am terrified to keep my windows opened so keep them closed all day and suffer more.  I can't go out to see someone to help me and i can;t go to my drs here in Scotland seems no one does house visits there is pretty much no support.   I have been on fluoxetine for like 3 years now nothing and i was given mirtazapine but my stupid mind stopped em from properly giving them ago cause i am the most paranoid mental case around. Thought about ending it many times  but too much of a coward but what good would that do int he end and top it off the worse is my fear of breathing i am a complete nut job no support just rotting by each day in the premises of my own home like a prison will i ever get better at this moment and time over the years nope.

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  • borderriever
    borderriever rossg1234

    Posted

    Rossg

    I think the NHS Information Line is the same as the UK, Tel 111.

    If you are stuck you need to talk to your GP and He will arrange a treatment pathway for you. We are located in England, So I am not sure regard house calls in Scotland although depending on where you live I would think your GP would visit as required.

    How do you get your medications

    BOB

  • karen_57593
    karen_57593 rossg1234

    Posted

    You are not a complete nut job u r ill and need too see a doctor asap please do this x
  • katiegrant
    katiegrant rossg1234

    Posted

    I am so sorry your going through this.  How awful for you.. I don’t know if you believe in God but if your willing,  he could help. All else has failed so what do you have to lose right?  I have major depression and anxiety all the pills only help a little..a few months ago I accepted Jesus as my savior and I reach out to him all day long I just talk to him as I would a close friend. He helps me so much..all I know is after I said these words ( I accept Jesus as my personal savior) and cry

    out to him he will bring you relief..just try it and see what happens..sometimes it’s immediate..sometimes it happens gradually...I will be thinking of you in my prayers

  • AlexandriaGizmo
    AlexandriaGizmo rossg1234

    Posted

    Hi Rossg you have said something really important, you don't want to die but your post is saying your to scared to live because at the moment you are definitely not living, as you say you are existing.

    What exactly are you scared of regarding all the things you can't do.

    What do you think will happen? If you can explain that then maybe someone can help, I truly understand your acrophobia, my Mum suffered with it for 17 years before she died and on her death bed she told me she had wasted her life.

    Do you know what triggered it

    • rossg1234
      rossg1234 AlexandriaGizmo

      Posted

      What triggered it i got no clue went through many things from bullied from primary to high school then struggles in college but go through that had a drinking issues when was in college but once i finished i quit drinking and it pretty much hit me hard with this fear not being able to breathe fear being outside then alt eh fears i have now so many things have happend 
  • rossg1234
    rossg1234

    Posted

    Thank you for all your replies much appreciated
    • AlexandriaGizmo
      AlexandriaGizmo rossg1234

      Posted

      That's a clear case of agrophobia, it is possible to get over it but you really need help to do this, have you had any form of therapy to try and get you past it.

      There are lots of treatments out their and one thing I can tell you is that most people who suffer this incapacitating illness can get over it, most take baby steps but the first one is the hardest, doing one of the things you dread and realising that it want kill you, I promise

  • rossg1234
    rossg1234

    Posted

    Yes will try start taking those small steps it's scary but needs to be done for sure

    • AlexandriaGizmo
      AlexandriaGizmo rossg1234

      Posted

      Good luck and remember most of us have been their so help is always available here so never feel like you're on your own

  • betterMonica
    betterMonica rossg1234

    Posted

    I'm sorry, your condition is critical. You need to turn to God for help every day.

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