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not been out my house in like 4 years now, maybe less or longer can't even remember. I am scared to go to the toilet, i am scared to take a bath or a shower i am scared to go down stairs, i am scared to drink, beer, tea, coffee and soda i am scared of everything. heat wave is here in the UK and i am terrified to keep my windows opened so keep them closed all day and suffer more. I can't go out to see someone to help me and i can;t go to my drs here in Scotland seems no one does house visits there is pretty much no support. I have been on fluoxetine for like 3 years now nothing and i was given mirtazapine but my stupid mind stopped em from properly giving them ago cause i am the most paranoid mental case around. Thought about ending it many times but too much of a coward but what good would that do int he end and top it off the worse is my fear of breathing i am a complete nut job no support just rotting by each day in the premises of my own home like a prison will i ever get better at this moment and time over the years nope.
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