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I'm 22 and always had anxiety about lymphoma and health in general. When I was 16 I was convinced i have lymphoma due to a "scarred submandibular gland" in which ultrasound results says it's normal sized and I moved on with life Fast forward to 6 years later, now I found a lymph node over the sternocleidomastoid muscle about two months ago. It's not visible but when you touch you can feel it under your fingers. I lost a week of sleep over it so I decided to see a ENT. She said it felt like a slight thyroid nodule since it's right side of the thryoid over the neck muscle. She didn't seem too conceded but sent me for an untlrasound of the neck and thyroid area. Same day I went to get that done and results "seemed normal" ... I felt relived. A week later after that I started getting panic attacks uncontrollably. Sweating, hot flashes, chills, muscle weakness, nausea, trembling, and unresponsive during conversation. The panic attacks would last for about an hour and then come back 20 minutes later all day long, everyday. During my panic attack days I would run to urgent care and tell them my symptoms. They ran some bloodwork and took my vitals. Everything is normal and was diagnosed with "anxiety reaction". The doctor checked my "lump" and said that's my muscle and to not worry. I was relieved!! But that same day in the evening I had another panic attack and some vomiting. These symptoms lasted 10 days straight... I finally decided to see a psychiatrist and they diagnosed me with GAD, health anxiety and panic disorder. They prescibred me 10mg of lexapro but have not taken any. I was still worried about my symptoms and my neck, and on top of this I was losing weight for no reason. So I found one of the top internist in my area by doing some research. She performed bloodwork and felt all around my body. She said there is nothing to worry about and that I'm fine! Again, I was relieved!! Two weeks later, I couldn't help but see her again to discuss my bloodwork because although they're all in normal range I was stressing about my WBC that is 10. At the urgent care which was 3 weeks prior to this visit my WBC was 7 so the increase worried me. Does anyone know what can cause an increase besides infection?? The doctor told me our blood isn't at the same level everyday. She told me it fluctuates ... it's in normal range and to not worry. She said my anxiety is out of control and to get on the lexapro that was given to me and want some to follow up in two weeks. I wonder why she wants to follow up?? That scares me. So I go home but still feel depressed and scared... On top of this a new symptom comes up .. I've been very very itchy all over my body but no rash. This has been going on for a couple weeks now. Im not allergic to anything! I don't have eczema or anything like that! I know itching all over with no rash is a symptom of lymphoma too. I am convinced I have it and that doctors are missing the diagnoses.
What are my next steps into ruling this out?
Should I take myself to the hospital?
I still have the lumpy sternocleidomastoid muscle in my neck and I'm constantly itching everywhere. I'm young and I don't want it to be too late if there is anything serious.
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