What I need to do to fix me?

I always had, when I was a kid a bad smell - Because my family was dysfunctional and they doesn't care about us (me and more 2 sisters). Then, when I started to grow up I started to care more about my health.

Finally I got my own house (I left my parents house).

Between that day and today: I already move 8 times (8 houses)

And in all the houses, I had problem with the neighbours about the weed smell - Yes I smoke weed all days.

I realised after smoke weed all my body smell it too, even if I wake up in the morning and get a shower to go work without smoking in the morning: People talked about weed smell when I pass. (Perfume doesn't work)

So, I understand the weed smell is more high when I m transpiring.

Then, the problem begins: the weed smell go to the intestine and my stool smell like weed too (This was true, because in my job someone said the wc smell like weed lol -I got my confirmation with that)

In some houses I lived I got a stress situation, neighbours screaming and I was just cleaning the house to

stop the weed smell.

And then, I moved to another house, with friends that smoke weed too.

But i was already marked: My mind turned addicted / warned to find voices talking about weed.

With time, and time, I understand I started to hear voices that could not be true.

Now, I can do stuffs, like dinner and hear people talk about what I m doing, like this: He will cook rice again... He eat so much rice... he will eat yogurt, now...

I realised I have this voices all the time, 😦

Maybe im paranoid now? I hope this is not schizophrenia 😦

I really need stop smoking weed, right? 😦

What I need to do?

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